inconsolable

2008-11-16T00:41:00.001+08:00

after 130 posts.

I MOVED.

so long. farewell. auf wiedersehen. goodnight

2008-11-15T11:50:00.003+08:00

damnnn. aia

GAHH. so hilarious. crappily didnt get well on time for aia but yeah. coughing lesser now. and plus. some annoying thing bothered me yesterday morning. and today. it hit nic. HAHA. anyway.

yesterday i bowled like SHITTTTTT.

the 11 am mq i bowled a bloody 59+ lol. so embarrassing. so yeah. i went to bowl another one in hopes the stupid 59+ wont appear on the board. HAHA.

2nd mq i played at 2pm. but like. ended up on 'fresh oil' lane. bowled with chris and huiwen. yeah brandon's gf. okay then yeah. first two games. strike like free. 10 board breakpoint wheeeeeeee. chris too. his first game was a 24+. i got a 191. cause i opened every bloody spare. SHIT. i should whack myself each time a miss a single pin and i miss hell alot gahhh. okay. 2nd game. same as chris. 205. 3rd game OMG WTF BBQ i lost my line. 145 then last game 161. efffffffffffffffffffffff. freaking wasted. omg. my mq was 702. lost to edlyn by 1 pin so i think im last qualifier for youth now. chris bowled a freaking 916 in total so i think he's top. PROOOOOO.

anyway. ohh! bowling graded a with kristel. confirmed. yeah. hopes higher on graded a cause like yeah. ny people dont play graded a. when the ny crowd comes back from indo open im DEAD. i swear. like shoosh all the way to the bottom. and denise is coming back on the 19th so she has 1 day to qualify but like grace and i were talking about it yesterday. she doesnt need a day. she needs 1 hour. but anyway. SO DOES GRACE. cause yeah. next year grace is in ny. lol. freaking pro-ded juniors.

okay michelle just told me that victorine lim's like last qualifier for youth so yay im not last ?! but aiyah wtf. i swear i need my 800 series. the last time i hit a 800 series or 600 series was like last year?! in june?! at rtc?! stupid champion of the month. i cannot remember what. but it wasnt even a 600 series. its even better. 700 plus i remember. cause had to beat eugene lim. then masters was a 199 avg scratch but it became 214 cause of handicap and i won chris cause of handicap. but hey. without handicap i get 2nd. THATS NOT THE POINT. and NOW. GAHHHH. NOW I HIT A BLOODY 700 for 4 GAMES?! cannot cannot. okay i swear i need a bloody 800. its been damn long. gahh

im bored. i think i shall change my blog soon. it has almost become an ambition. cause i've been chanting 'i wanna change blog' since.... june?! lol. okay so its gonna happen soon. should i try xanga =/ hmm maybe i should. since i need one anyway. cause ense's blog's locked and she told me to get one so i can go to her blog. lol. anyway. leaving the house soon. gonna reserve the ball i'll use for milo. then to buy some stuff.

alley. tomorrow. 1pm. i swear i need the 800. i. need. ALL THE LUCK IN THE WORLD. like. ten leaf clovers. ALOT. and err. err.. hong paos. idk. whatever. anything red! haha. shiettt. okay.

either way. i'll make sure my doubles with kristel wont screw up. maybe can win doubles. 100 bucks i think. split. 50-50. wow. i earn 20. oh no wait. IT DOESNT COVER THE FEW HUNDRED I'LL BE SPENDING

gahhhhhh.

cant imagine. this was what i bowled last year in june.
226 215 181 181 191 182 224 194
omg my lowest game 181. my bloody mq avg now doesnt even beat that. WTH. CANNOTTTTTT.

I NEED THIS NOW. DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-05T11:38:00.002+08:00

apparently the security at rtc got my wallet back from me. to the fucktard who picked it up and only got nothing to say when the security called him cause they recognised who he was. i hate you. you 'gave everything back'. you didnt return me what the most obvious thing was. the first letter my bestfriend gave me. fuck you. im gonna make a police report for theft and im telling them to ask rtc for the guy's name and im getting the damn letter back or at least get you punished. cause you can just fucking eat your own shit.

anyway. having a really bad fever. since yesterday.

recently i've been really obsessed with quite a few songs. i'm beginning to like all around me by flyleaf even more now. haha. influenced by beat and hiroki and all. and check yes juliet by we the kings. (: not to forget elevator and in the ayer by flo rida.

2008-11-04T17:53:00.002+08:00

gahh. havent been updating. so OP IS OVER. and SO IS PW. hallelujah praise the lord yo. like finally. but i kinda screwed up Q&A. ah ohwells. its over anyway.

went home to change yesterday. met up in town with the pw group. nick came along cause wanxuan asked me to ask nick along. haha. so yeah. julius emily wanxuan yuhui nick and i. mark tan was supposed to come apparently. and he didnt. yeah. anywayyy.

watched high school musical 3. i cannot believe i actually agreed to watch that stupid show but whatever. 6 bucks wasted. it sucks. so damn fake yo. anyway.

ohh yeah. at cathay nick and i were there first. so yeah. we went up the escalator and he was pointing to N.U.M and he was like ISNT THAT GERALD TAN?! then im like OH YEAH!!! then we we ran over and everything. after a while. he pointed somewhere else and he was like ISNT THAT CLIFTON?! then we waved and then he and sam came over. LOL. small world yo. hmm.

after that the rest came and we went to buy tix and all. then yeah. after that walked around and met up with the rest of the classmates for bbq.

met xinpei beat jephtath glenn hiroki at dhoby ghaut while wanxuan went off. yeah. took a train to go to the steamboat place. since i had no ezlink i bought standard ticked but to the wrong place. to newton. then a few of us stopped at newton and i changed the trip to toapayoh. then yeah. we took a shuttle bus down to turf city.

oh yeah. something wrong with the damn mrt. burnt smell from the tracks. horrible yo. seriously. anyway. yeah. julius yuhui emily and i got off once cause we thought that the train was gonna explode. and it turns out the problem lies in the tracks and not the train itself. ohwells.

steamboat was hell fun man. we all ate like mad. cooked like free too. we changed the hot plate god knows how many times and all. lol. and free flow of everything man. omg. and yeah! kaiwen paul and neson came later. so yeah. we got to know more about people. example. hiroki likes corn. kaiwen and hiroki like the mussels. (even though they were smelly). and BEAT CAN COOK! lol. the salmon that she cooked was seriously damn nice man. ohwells. after we ate we did quite a bit of retarded things. then yeah. we walked out together and left. (:

for those who said they would come but didnt in the end. YOUR LOSS. whatever.

YESTERDAY WAS A BLAST.

2008-10-29T05:14:00.002+08:00

things happen,
you question a thousand times.
in the end,
you'll still accept it,
because its life.

ohwells. tonight. i felt 18. for a moment.
stress, anxiety, disappointment, confusion, jealousy
coexisting=not good.

whatever it is. this song by kate voegele (a singer who made her debut in OTH season 5. she has a really nice voice and awesome songs) kinda cheered me up for a while.

i guess i just needed to talk to people. failed terribly in the process of finding one to talk to. gave up. found an alternative. suckish, expensive, horrible, USELESS way. so here's her song.

it's only life-kate voegele
Tears are forming in your eyes
A storm is warning in the sky

The end of the world it seems
You bend down and you fall on your knees
Well get back on your feet yeah

[chorus]
Don't look away
Don't run away
Hey baby it's only life
Don't lose your faith
Don't run away
Hey baby its only life
Yea it's only life

You were always playing hard
Never could let down your guard

But you can't win
If you never give in
To that voice within
Saying pick up your chin
Baby let go of it

[Chorus]

Take your hesitance
And your self-defense
Leave them behind, it's only life
Don't be so afraid
Of facing everyday
Just take your time, it's only life
I'll be your stepping-stone
No, don't be so alone
Just hold on tight, it's only life

[Chorus]

2008-10-19T18:37:00.002+08:00

yesterday. went to watch poly-ite with tay. asshole daryl chia came for a while. haha. anyway. nothing much. met mandy there. omg i realised how detached i am from the bowling world. well. time to get back on track yo. anyway. hopes of getting into sa are falling. ohwells.

and im thinking of stepping down as captain in pj cause. if being a captain means having to silently agree to all the insults they talk about sajc. saying that sa open house is so flat. not interesting. im sorry. i cant do that. i didnt know leaders were meant to say others were bad and set them as examples to make sure you do better than them. how about the positive parts? shouldnt leaders learn from the positive parts about others? i guess pj thinks their leaders should be special.

anyway. gonna find out if i can play graded for milo. if i can. thank god. cause i guess i really need this opportunity. hmm.

oh yeah. back to the topic of yesterday. went to nick's house after poly-ite. waited for him to shower. watched abit of friends while waiting and then we watched some damn funny episode together. "you copied my moves" hahaha. then we went to amk. in search of SOMETHING. kinda failed. so yeah. went to buy prata turkey ham. everyone should try it. i swear. went down to town to meet brent. oh yeah. on the way to meet brent, i saw wanxuan emily, xuan's sis and some other guy. idk who.

haha i realised how much brent changed. nick as well. maybe i have. haha. fine. we all change. but yeah. brent was being some really high guy. i dont know why. but yeah. quite funny and all. anyway. watched max payne. omg its quite a nice movie. too bad we missed the starting part. and i dont quite get the movie but its okay. the graphics were awesome. after the movie. we finally bought that SOMETHING. then yeah. decided to go boat quay to eat. after eating, nick and i waited for brent to come back. then yeah. we left.

and we were talking about chalet during december (: yeah man. 3 of us (cause brent better come HAHA.) and we'll definitely invite NICHOLETTE GOH!. nick says. "number one on our list" hahahaha. and tay ense audrey gerald. the fun people luh. yeah (:

i hope someone reads this. idk. maybe these past few days when i see less of you. you feel less annoying. idk but there's just this something about you that pisses me off. like maybe its cause of what you did and what im expecting you to do. we can all expect what you say or do when something happens. like seriously. do you ever realised that people get SO damn turned off by you now. cause you're just being an insensitive asshole. like seriously. you invite others to someone else's house. like hello. its their house not yours. you call people a freeloader when you freeload yourself. you accuse people of things they do that make you consider them 'fuckers' but you just did it a few minutes ago. why? is it hurting your ego that they're winning you?! dude. open your eyes. be more sensitive. maybe people will accept you more.

2008-10-16T21:54:00.001+08:00

today you got your results. i hope it went well.

anyway. im prepared to be retained. cause. im receiving alot of like hidden hints from teachers. idk. its just this instinct. ohwells. who cares anyway. future ruined anyway.

2008-10-16T01:42:00.003+08:00

okay i swear. each time i enter blogger. this happens.

you see. when i enter. im signed in. signed in = easier to go to a blog without having to sign in again.

then. finally today. i actually managed to read posts. well. i havent exactly been able to see your blog posts. whatever. anyway. so yeah. idk what to say either. and the 'happy' post isnt from your blog. and i wasnt talking about you entirely either. in fact. the trigger of the post wasnt even anything you said. its what i saw. which kinda lead indirectly to you. clearly if you stand from my p.o.v. you'd see how although you told me before. 'i'd rather talk to you than to him' is clearly not the case right now. in fact. we talk more often with him as a starting point. idk how you'll see my p.o.v. and im not comparing myself with your friends freely. its so damn frustrating luh. lets just put it that way. cause you never ever have the time. even if you do. you no longer talk to me about stuff unless i start talking to you about it. (understandable) why? if you can tell me its 100% not cause of what happened then hats off to you. if not. this is what im talking about. the promise. "give me a missed call or drop a msg when that thing with him is bothering you". was that an empty promise or what. normally i'd ask you have you been talking to so and so. you tell me like oh when they talk to me then maybe i'll tell them some stuff. ever realised its whats going on between us now? and well. you saw my blog. you replied my post. and yet you pretended nothing happened and saturday is on. i wouldnt even have known you replied me till i MANAGED to read your blog. with this half-trust. how on earth?

maybe instead of wishing you never met him or something. you could choose me instead.

ah shit. you know what. this is going nowhere. till you read this. i'll just wait for a reply on your blog.

fuck chinese im gonna s.t.f.u. and sleep.

2008-10-16T01:27:00.002+08:00

so i'm supposed to be doing I&R and chinese. SURPRISE SURPRISE i ain't doing anything.

oh did i mention that recently, some secondary near my school (ask me which) haha. they put up a huge poster telling people about so and so their top scorer for O's. 7 distinctions. and im like err okay. waste money. -.-

anyway. oh yeah. today went for open house briefing. wow. amazing. they actually kept commenting on how sajc's open house was NOT enthusiastic and NOT lively. like hello. sa's open house quite lively what. i bet they went when the fun ended but still. dont need to compare here compare there right. i mean like hello. its someone else's school. why you care. and im sure sa doesnt need to have a lively open house.

given a choice. if you had pj who gave you such a fun open house. and you had sa who had a comparatively boring open house (with the assumption that their open house was as boring as the teacher and SC girl said), i'd choose sa. im sure many will too. i dont think many pick a school based on just one event that they held. its quite a biased way dont you think.

ohwells. i shall just buck up now. start catching up on stuff that i may have left out despite studying for promos. and read ahead. time to buy othelio, start reading. and borrow notes. gahh. actually idk. im confused.

had training today. sucked. my bowling's like NOOBSHIT. gosh. oh i saw rachel's mum today. rachel as in rachelkoh. nag teammate (:

OH! aia's coming too. time to find doubles partner. according to helmi, i cant play graded for 3 years ONLY IN SINGAPORE (((((((: lets just pray that is true. then milo i can play graded. THANK HEAVENS I HAVENT BOOKED MY MQs YET. (:

i'll go find out soon. ohwells. okay okay. time to get working on chinese. chinese is the new high. not.

school ends at 5.30 tomorrow. why cant it end at 2.30 -.- GAHH.

1 more day away from my ipod.

oh to everyone who doesnt know. my ipod drowned in milk tea. DONT ASK. so yes. do me a nice great favor and never mention about my ipod nano that just looks like an ordinary block. kinda reminds you of chocolate. idk. its fragile. its like sooooo breakable. its tempting but yet. yeah. OOH i remember. when i first bought it and brought it to training. lixin and was it michelle or jo. cant remember. they were like OMG ITS LIKE SOOOO BREAKABLE. SO TEMPTING. i'll never forget it. so threatening. imagine if they accidentally broke it. lol.

anyways. okay really. back to chinese.
tata.

2008-10-11T18:36:00.002+08:00

wheeeeeeeeee...

i havent blogged in.. forever. okay so school has been slack slack slack. i officially hate added a new teacher on my hate list. my pw group will know who. (: actually i think now everyone will know. its pretty obvious.

anyway. so i was right. you didnt read the post. or at least didnt take any action after reading it. i dont know how to prove myself wrong anymore. only you can. if you even made the effort to read my blog. obviously you dont.

just a while ago. i was having a chat with someone about friendships and all. made me think through thoroughly. in the past, you'd say you'd rather talk to me than to him. how im more important. well. maybe you never noticed how much he meant to you till you lost him. maybe you never noticed that he was of that much importance. neither did i because i took what you said. and thats how conflicts started. cause during that time. unimportant seemed more important because you payed the SLIGHTEST attention to him. well. now, i see the true extent of his importance. i see how our conversations will never fail to mention his name. whenever i get a message from you. probably 8/10 is regarding any issue with him. and most of the time, 2/10 are messages that will signify any possible letdown in agreement to meet/talk.

am i wrong? was i wrong all along?

Hope you remember me,
When youre homesick and need a change.
I miss your purple hair,
I miss the way you taste.

I know youll come back someday,
On a bed of nails awake.
Im praying that you dont burn out,
Or fade away.

All we are is all so far

Youre falling back to me,
The star that I cant see.
I know youre out there,
Somewhere out there.

someone would always question me. " is it worth it? "
i'd ALWAYS say " yeah "
in my heart i'll question " but am i worth it? "
the answer i'd give myself is " no "
but why do i just keep hanging on.
i'd walk past shops, look at the cute little graphics on bottles, soft toys
they remind me of our icons
but why do i still remember this anyway.

its okay. judging by promos, i'd never make it out of this school. i'll always pay for my mistake. this distance will either help me forget, or make me remember-for life.

Today is the day
The worst day of my life
You're so content it hurts me
I don't know why
The cost of misery
Is at an all time high
I keep it hidden
Close to the surface in sight

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me

2008-10-04T20:29:00.002+08:00

i just found out clara lau has the same birthday as rooster.

that was random.

ohwells.

2008-10-03T21:46:00.005+08:00

being ongyingxin. i bloghopped.
saw a page that dealt a double blow.
i saw you 'happy' for once these few days.
in a place i probably didnt expect to see the happiness at.
since according to you. you and her, 'its over'

have things changed.
although everything felt right earlier this week,
maybe its just like before.
an effect like spirit gum,
no more than temporary.
i dont think you'll even see this.
once again. im lost.
because, i never really got an answer from you.
though i tried asking what are we now.
every try will lead to a change in topic. a moment of silence.
what now?

maybe its really retribution. i ended up here. screwing up my future. with a screwed up social circle. with 'friends' who obviously hate me yet pretend. probably for your sake. but no its not your fault. its just me and me that screwed up everything. nevertheless. it's again naive of me to think they actually shrugged the prejudice against me.

like my previous blog.
i've given up.

not too long ago. you made me find faith in myself.
now. faith fades away just as you do.
so what easier way to put it.
i've given up. on myself.
i've given up on my ability to salvage anything because it just seems i cant.

as i said. if you step away now. it'll hurt much less. as much as i hope im being paranoid. i cant tell. because right now. im just lost. so if by the miracle of God. you see this post. please give me an answer you never gave. reply something left there since a month ago. or something that would mean a hell lot to me. a simple honest answer.

2008-10-03T21:22:00.002+08:00

Follow the notes upon a journey
At first sight marks one's destiny
Once the voyage comes to an end
Return lies within hasty keys

if only this works. i could travel back to no more than a year and few months. prevent myself from causing everything. i'd save your misery from the problems i caused. and i'd save your misery from the problems i caused between you and others. i'd study. i'd be where you're at. i'd be away from the place i seriously hate now. we'd still be close as what we were.

im really sorry. you're in this shit cause of me. you're always so sad. and although you promised to call if you felt horrible. you don't. and i feel worse. gahh. i'll try my best to fix it. but i can sense it. things between us.
bad. idk.

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When I'm going down don't worry about me
please dont.

2008-09-30T19:56:00.002+08:00

today can be summarised in one word. GREAT.

it was awesome. kinda felt the old times coming back. sitting for 2 hours just talking over lunch. thanks (: i felt much better today. and dont worry about that thing kay. it'll be over soon. karma will kick in. before it does. we'll settle stuff yeah! i'll always be here for you. and i feel damn bad over the past stuff. so to help me feel less of an ass. call me when you need someone? (: takecare(: catch up soon again.

today. RETAIL THERAPY after with archana and purnima.
i bought a nice belt. and the identical necklace that i lost at milo. JOY.

anyway. some stupid shit happened at far east. i shall not mention. i just hate the damn aunty. think too much man.

okay im gonna drink with the neighbours now. adios amigos.

2008-09-26T19:14:00.002+08:00

screw math. 1 o clock paper. woke up at 1230. thanks mum. there goes studying plus changing my gc batteries. yes. gc with no battery. how bad can things get. if i pass. i'll be ecstatic. now. i have a loooong break to lit paper. oh. my screwed up dad just put a 1 am curfew on me. how cool. =.=

anyway. today. today. went out with nic and nick. yeah. OMG i swear. i havent seen nic in so long. i forgot how much she cheers me up man. SHES DAMN FUNNY. omg. she made nick and i laugh sooooo much today. haha.

"monday's a very special day" indeed. 29th september. someone's birthday (: haha. i still dont know nick and i are getting her. i'll think of something yo.

im growing FATTER. notice the ER to show that im already fat and its getting worse. yeah. one fine day. i wont fit through my room door. i cant drive a lambo. i cant drive a cooper. i'll be TOOO BIG. okay. resolution. cut down on transfat. cut down on eating. cause its making me broke too ):

met mars today. i was telling nick how i see all the sa people at dhoby ghaut. maybe i'll see mars or tay. i called tay. she said she was no where near dhoby ghaut. soooo. got off the train at newton. stepped out of my cabin and mars was right in front sitting and reading her book. haha.

me: mars!
mars: *continues reading her book*
me: MARISSA CHIA!
mars: oh hey.
me: *points at her green book thinking its p&p* eh?! *realises its great expectations* OHHHH.
mars: err. what you doing here?
me: oh i just met nick so yeah. going home now.

so yeah. we ended with yeah kay. see you soon. bye! kinda thing. yeah. quite cool. i think i should spend time catching up with everyone during the hols. kinda miss all my friends. NIC. MARS. GERALD. COURT. 4I clique. maybe denise. we were supposed to watch a movie i cant remember what. HAHA. ohwells. hmm. OH. and not to forget. ADELINETAY. haha.

omg i just found out how stressful sa exams are. they have like gp and chinese on the same day. its a perfect example of write-till-you-drop. then they have econs. FULL PAPER. like TWO ESSAYS. holy shit. then CHEM AND MATH ON THE SAME DAY. like oh my bloody god. besides chem-whoring you gotta save brain juice for math? or vice-versa. insane.

then we have ac. promos just started today. o.o

gahh. unfair-funfair. NOT FAIR. basket.

anyway. gonna eat dinner now. blog some other time. CIAOOO

2008-09-23T20:05:00.002+08:00

GAHHHHHH.

CHEM-WHORING
DID NOT HELP. basket.

shit man. im SOOOOOOOOOOO screwed for chem. i can feel the U crashing down on me.

chinese was. the usual. sucky. boring. makes you want to sleep. and the hall was effing cold. made you want to sleep even more. the guy to my left was like writing with his eyes closed. and suddenly he stopped. i think he slept. yeah. then he woke up and continued. LOL. imagine. cold aircon. cold weather. 3 hours long. and its CHINESE. holy crap. i just hate the subject. end of story. compre was damn ass difficult. ohwells. FAIL. what's new?

econs was. acceptable. judging that i suck at that subject anyhow. i just wished i read all the questions in advance so i would have realised that THE DAMN LAST QUESTION FOR CASE STUDY WAS ON MARKET FAILURE TOO. its like the essay COPY AND PASTE. just change to negative. AHHHHH fish pangsai. whatever. its over. math tomorrow. afternoon paper. which means....

SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP

anyway. gossip girl episode 3 is THE love. actually. which episode is not. so nevermind. i'll just repeat it every time i watch a new one. yeah.

ohhhh. yeah. the sydney people beat the china people for CGS. championship gaming series. i think. some show on super sports. yeah. quite cool. lol. the sydney car racing guy's quite cool. like cool life story. and the girl's quite good looking. she played DOA for them. how cool. anyway. watching the china people play reminded me of LAN with the guys. we decided to go internet and WOWZERS. only open server was the hongkong server. we were all saying cool man. sekali you hear them shouting DIU LEI LOU MOU. lol. but whatever. they were communicating in hongky. and hacking. basket. ohwells.

and the china case. oh man ): ice cream is no longer a remedy. actually it is. if you want the remedy permanent. like... overdose of sleeping pills? THEY KILL. holy shit. at least i think so. heck. its poisonous. full stop.

im bored. time to go play secret. i shall learn how to play it soon. YAY.

2 down. 2 more to go. WHEEEEEEEEEE (:

then there's !@#$%^&* pw. i hate that sub. did i mention i hate it. okay i hate it. i dont even think its a subject. its a burden. its a freaking chore. its a blood boiler. it kills. idontcare. it just does.

and there's chinese A's. did i mention i hate this too. not to mention screwing up oral. HOLY SHIT. the only thing i could count on. wish i had practised the art of being cheena more. ohwells.

adios amigos.

2008-09-14T18:36:00.004+08:00

our class is now FREAKING BONDED. i swear.
its true. bitches make themselves miserable. cause people bond through the horrible acts of them bitches. yeah baby.
i just read someone's blog. her ENGLAND IS SOOOOOOO POWDERFUL!. ITS FILLED WITH SO MUCH POWDER IM SOOOOO INTIMIDATED. oh no. ): someone's gonna beat me at gp. someone's gonna beat me at math. i swear. im gonna make sure i beat her at these two. the rest. chinese wise. i'll leave it to the rest of the TEAM to beat her. im sure they all can. (:

I intentionally
H hating
A assholes
T truthfully
E encouraging
Y your
O obvious
U unpopularity

lol. this is damn lame. but heck.

internally, 08s10 has officially started world war 3. be afraid. be very afraid. especially if you are her. oh oops. i think she already is.

its a sin to cry about your problem to your teacher if....
you're 18
you started the whole shit
you did that in front of people who supposedly 'caused' it
(this is the funniest) THE TEACHER KNOWS YOUR STUPID ACT EVEN BEFORE YOU SAID IT. AND SHE GAVE THE FREAKING ADVICE TO SOMEONE TO TALK TO YOU.

obviously we wanted to clear stuff out with you. you never gave anyone a chance to.

running away is not the solution. its the start of a new problem. (:

ababcdcdefef GG YO!

2008-09-09T01:26:00.002+08:00

new group of friends yo. david clive kevin weijie eudora. clockwise starting from person next to me. yeah.

omg. weijie seriously posted this on facebook. i thought he was joking. haha. and along with this picture i dont remember taking -.- and pictures they took in the toilet. HOLY SHIT. okay nevermind. this is like the best among all? oh and eudora looks damn funny. LOL okay nevermind. junhao's not in the pic. =.= anyway.

wooooohooooo drinking after promos. i think i'll drink like mad. cause im gonna fail and then like LOL so much for transferring. WHEEEEEEEE.

see that chivas bottle. the amount left in there. most of it went to my stomach after that. doubleyou-tee-eff. so yeah.

CHEM TEST TOMORROW. WHEEEEE.

2008-09-06T18:45:00.001+08:00

wtf is wrong with me. aiyah. screw everything. seriously. ongyingxin you suck. you deserve to be a born loner. born loser. born failure. face it.

2008-09-03T00:58:00.002+08:00

You were the only face I'd ever known.
I was the light from the lamp on the floor,
and only as bright as you wanted me to be.
But, I am no gentleman, I can be a prick,
and I do regret more than I admit.
You have been followed back to the same place I sat with you drink for drink.
Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist.

Everything we had, everything we had,
everything we had, everything we had is no longer there.

It was the only place I'd never known.
Turned off the light on my way out the door.
I will be watching wherever you go,
through the eyes of a fly on the wall.
You have been followed back to the same place I sat with you drink for drink.
Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist.

Everything we had, everything we had,
everything we had, everything we had is no longer there, longer there.

You saw for yourself, the way it played out.
For you, I am blinded.
For you, I am blinded, for you.

I am no gentleman, I can be a prick.
And I do regret more than I admit.
You have been followed back to the same place I sat with you drink for drink.
Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist.

Everything we had, everything we had,
everything we had, everything we had.
Everything we had, everything we had,
everything we had...

I'll be with you wherever you go,
through the eyes of a fly on the wall.

---

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had
And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

everything we had. is no longer there

2008-08-17T23:58:00.005+08:00

i think my pw group would know that long ago when we were at yuhui's house i was watching the music video of boston by augustana. i just went to youtube to search for it again. then.. i chanced upon this. please take a moment to watch it. ESPECIALLY if you watched one tree hill.

CMM (: SOPHIA BUSH (:
dont they just look awesome together. they should have stayed a couple. both in real life and in OTH. i dont know about OTH though. havent really had the time to follow the episodes. will catch up on that show later. heard they're ending the seasons. )):

if you watched the video. you'd notice the quotes.
"People who are meant to be always find their way in the end."
"Love is not love which alters when alteration finds. When life gets hard and things change, true love remains the same"

great reflective quotes. gets you thinking about everything. nothing specific. just love.
ohwells.

gonna sleep now. really tired. takecare people! (:

<3

2008-08-16T22:32:00.002+08:00

gahh. david ng. you suckkk. ass. haha.

because.

1. you keep using pool chalk to poke me.
2. you drew a cow on my foolscap.
3. you drew a smiley face that looks weird and it says "moo was here :)" on my hand. and it refuses to come off
4. you made me walk back from btsc at 2+am after playing pool. (though pool was fun)
5. im addicted to green tea
6. you came knockknockknock on my house door after calling me twice yesterday. TWICE ONLY! -.-
7. you threatened to do it again so i woke up at 10am so at 11 when you call i will be awake. then in the end you went without me. -.- BASKET.
8. i keep having the urge to play pool now.
9. you took stupid snapshots of me. DAMN UNGLAM. even more than the usual unglam ugly me. assss.
10. idk. haha. its a nice number. cant stop at 9. thats nick's fav.

anyway. tomorrow. stupid cip at 7. then stupid pw. then i shall see if i can study with audrey/go csc. basket. why's everything on a sunday. my saturdays are damnnnn free. gahh.

i shall go shower and study chem. WHEEEEEEE. ciaoooooooooooo

2008-08-13T00:10:00.004+08:00

i honestly dont know why i even bother. like seriously. cause things dont seem to be the same. no way. even though ironically. you're not in the same school anymore.

if no time = reliving the past.

maybe the present and future would be your past.

me? im just not there.

i wanna prove special friend wrong that things arent as it seems. will you help me?

who am i trying to plead to. not like you'll see this anyway.

2008-08-12T02:19:00.003+08:00

OMG I HAVE TO BLOG ABOUT THIS. HAHAHAHA.

okay i was supposed to be doing poetry. BUT. talking to david is damnnnn hilarious.
we were talking about something. thenn....

yingxin in the light of the sun says:
she twits right
~David~ throwing myself into the fray and i'll hit the ground running says:
twits?
~David~ throwing myself into the fray and i'll hit the ground running says:
wth is tat?
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
OMG YOU DONT KNOW

~David~ throwing myself into the fray and i'll hit the ground running says:
no i dont
~David~ throwing myself into the fray and i'll hit the ground running says:
-.-
~David~ throwing myself into the fray and i'll hit the ground running says:
is the world coming to an end?
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
like. ii dunchh lyksx euu w0rxx
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
SOMETHING LIKE THAT LA
~David~ throwing myself into the fray and i'll hit the ground running says:
ohhhhhhhhhh
~David~ throwing myself into the fray and i'll hit the ground running says:
ya
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
congrts
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
you see the world. i mean half of singapore
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
-.-
~David~ throwing myself into the fray and i'll hit the ground running writes:
*draws a weird thing*
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
whats that supposed to be
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
botak jones?
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
no wait
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
botak jones is.........
~David~ throwing myself into the fray and i'll hit the ground running says:
its an upside dwn smiley
yingxin in the light of the sun writes:
*tries drawing botak jones logo*
~David~ throwing myself into the fray and i'll hit the ground running says:
-_-
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
oh right.
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
okay
~David~ throwing myself into the fray and i'll hit the ground running says:
wtf
~David~ throwing myself into the fray and i'll hit the ground running says:
u have their logo
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
lolll
~David~ throwing myself into the fray and i'll hit the ground running says:
=.=
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
no i dont
~David~ throwing myself into the fray and i'll hit the ground running says:
......................................
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
its just a bald head mannnn
~David~ throwing myself into the fray and i'll hit the ground running writes:
*draws a pile of shit*
~David~ throwing myself into the fray and i'll hit the ground running says:
poop head :D

those things with the stars. i'll take screenshot and post it. HAHAHA. tomorrow.

2008-08-11T01:09:00.002+08:00

i just told boyfriend that im gonna learn how to play this song on the guitar for her. when i get a guitar. HAHA. oh i just thought of another song. so make it two. oh and i just told her she's gonna cut chia's tongue for some reason. HAHAHA. too bad you dont know the reason. anywayyy

i shall go rush pw now. cause i got something on tomorrow. cant meet the group. anyway.

oh i asked ense earlier.

okay wait. let me get the timeline right. called ense on the way to rail mall to meet david. reached. slacked. then drank a bottle of breezer. on the way home called boyfriend. yes. okay. anyway.

when i was on the way and i was talking to ense. i was asking her. what if someone you know. probably trusted quite abit. is just drifting. and has been since this incident indirectly caused by you. what signal does it send? idk what to call it. whatever.

things to do by tuesday.
spa file with skill b and d for every experiment
p&p project- theme
poetry assignment
research on sonnets
written report
econs outline
and to study for the test next week asap.

CONGRATULATIONS ONGYINGXIN
oh wait fuck i forgot. there's still gp. overdue and current work. OMGGGGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

breezer makes me sleepy. gahh.

2008-08-10T11:13:00.002+08:00

omg i havent blogged in the longest time. wheee.

okay. yesterday. went to yuhui's house to do project work. coolios man. we found a documentry to help us with our project. causeeee. we were watching olympics. LOL. okay anyway.

then erm. oh yeah. went to meet nick and david after. omg they FORCED me to watch p2. at first i didnt know what kinda movie it was and so they happily said it was about playstation 2. LIES. anyway. met their friend. adeline something. lol. she looks like a mix between xinpei and panya. o.o okay. anyway. some shit happened i had to zhao. then yeah. nothing much.

ohohoh. today i shall finish my work so tomorrow i can meet enseilia goh to study. YAY. much fun yo. okay anyway. thanks ense. for never failing to reply my smses especially when im pissed x 12321853219 yeah. and for calling me sometimes. and SORRY. haha. i keep forgetting which is your prepaid and then i call your prepaid and when aiteng said theres no more free incoming for prepaid you're like nevermind. though i wanna call your line you're like NEVERMIND. hha. crazy girl. ohohoh. i am damn hungry. i think i should go buy meepok. AGAIN. i've been eating it for 3 days in a row. =/

2008-08-05T23:32:00.002+08:00

): my house is becoming more empty by the day. after this friday. goodbye mg. ): GAHHHH.

whatever man. this is motivation. work hard. do well. get a good job. good pay. MOVE BACK. yay.

i really have ABSOLUTELY no idea. how im gonna pass my end of years. i have no idea what the flying fish integration wants. and im still lost in alkanes and alkenes when people are doing arenes now. OMG ONGYINGXIN WAKE UP.

whatever. and my social life isnt getting anywhere. ): boyfriend's sick again. TAKECARE! (: omg and it appears that my stupid previous post didnt turn out nice just cause of the stupid html.. gahh. okay i shall find another way to put it. anyway.

hmmmm. lets see.

sunday. nothing much. went to meet nick and tay. met nick at 5+ at ps. yeahh. he wore his 'school uniform' and i was dressed sooooo skimpily like shirt and shorts -.- lol. anyway. we wanted to watch a movie. butttt. unforseen circumstances. the stupid causeway jam. so tay was stuck there. =/ then nick and i walked around ps like about twice i think. HAHA. ohwells. and err. we then walked over to cathay. haha. with hope that tay can make it for that movie timing. but she was still stuck there. HAHA. ohwells. so i bought ben and jerrys [omg the sin man.] yeah. saw athiyah there. yeah. hmm. then we walked around again. went to some damn expensive furniture shop. then went to gramaphone and looked at dvds. we scanned through the shop like twice. then tay finally cleared checkpoint and we went to billybombers to wait for her.

so we both ordered. nick ordered a full house burger. wtf yes i know. i ordered a naked gun with egg ham bacon. then our drinks. HAHA. i ordered SOPHIA. haha. what a WTF name. yes i know. ahem. imagine ong ordering that. HAHAHAHA. ohwells. hmmmm. okay he'll kill me for that. anyway. nick ordered DESIRE ME. ahhahaha. so damn funny. then we got onto the topic of the drinks. sex on the beach and blowjob. AHHAHA. nick didnt know it existed. hmmm. oh. ordered half fries half rings. we shared. i took fries he took rings and he regretted cause he thought fries were disgusting when it is THE love. ohwells.

after we finished tay came. talked abit and all. damn funny convo. oh and we headed back. trained. loads of fun man. anyway. THANK YOU BOYFRIEND FOR MEETING US. though it was a damn short while.

monday. didnt go to school. had really bad stomachache. i think it was the indigestion. HAHA. ohwells.

tuesday. today. didnt go school again. wanted to. but on the way had really bad stomachache so i came back. got extention for mc. HAD TO PLAY LEAGUE AT NIGHT. omg man. against helmi's team. oh i was supposed to meet lester for dinner. HAHA. he reached SLIGHTLY earlier than me. then i wanted to bowl abit first. so he ate in the alley =/ MY BAD. haha. and my mum made me eat before i came so not ENTIRELY my fault. anyway. bowled two games then we went down to get potato salad. wheeee. oh yeah. bowled against helmi. damn stupid. i won first game by alot. 2 other games. I FREAKING LOST BY 1 PIN EACH GAME> omggggg. how stupid. 2 points gone cause of 2 pins. WTFFFF. ): could have won 4 points okayyy. and i should have bought per on helmi's first split. baskettt. money gone. and oh yeah. IM OFFICIALLY BROKE. seriously. =/

ohhhhhmygodddddd im confused. what kinda mixed signals man. =/ ah heck. not interested.

i desperately need help with my studies. godddd. =/ okay i shall go emo in one corner. AHHA. wth. okay nevermind. gahh. lit tomorrow. i think mr sas is gonna throw my journal back in my face. =/ cause what i wrote that week was like TOTAL crap. ): god. dieeee. okay i shall stop blogging. i'll post up pictures in another post. BYE!!!.

2008-08-03T02:43:00.002+08:00

i finally decided to open a chain letter. it was from david. hmm. it says...

Good Friends

Last night you and your best friend had a fight.
You decide not to talk to her the next day.
She smiles at you. You grind your teeth at her.
She tells her friends nice things about you.
You spread bad rumors about her.
She tries to come and talk to you.
But you push her aside.
She thinks you are a great friend.
You think she is a terrible friend.
She writes nice notes to you, telling you about the best times you shared together.
You write about all the bad times you can remember experiencing together.

Deep down you know she's sorry.
But all you have is hate.
The next day you find a note.

It reads:
Dear ________, I tried to tell you yesterday, but you
didn't let me speak, I tried to tell you good things,but you were afraid to
hear them. I tried to smile at you, to take away the hate. But now it's
time to tell you, even though it's a bit late. That i am dying. I have a
bad condition and it is getting worse. I'm sorry to have to tell you that i
won't be able to see you today. I wrote this to you today in the hospital.

My time is up.

I'm sorry i should have told you sooner. I'm really sorry about our
argument,you are such a great friend. I promise i shall watch over you,
Lots of love __________

You run to the hospital to tell her you are sorry,
But only her mum is left.
Her hand clasped over her face. And she was crying.
Down on her knees she prays, for her daughter to come back.
You were too late.
You wish you told her sorry sooner and got to say goodbye.

All friends have their ups and downs, and sometimes you need to say sorry..
Don't wait for the other person to do it first.
Because you never know what could happen.

coincidence or a hint from God. =/
im sorry.

anyway. i did i mention how my mood was lifted just now? i was packing stuff. i saw this letter. in the front it says YINGXIN! <3 and i was like hmm okay. wonder who's it from. wanted to open. looked behind. it says i love you in twit. haha. i forgot how it was exactly. kinda put the letter somewhere. anyway. yeah. had someone in mind. to reconfirm. cause the handwriting was quite common. i opened it. CHUA TAUGAY! <3. thanks ahh adeline tay. LOL. and i read the contents. so funny. you and _ _ _ _ _ N besties. LOL. and the whole long list of guys i wrote for you. HAHAHA. ohwells. guy magnet.

hmm i shall post shoutout for PEOPLE. since im in letter mood. both meanings. i shall post shoutout to letters. (:

A:
HEY YOU! omg i really missed the fun times we had. with relation to the earlier part of the post. im sorry =/ anyway. tomorrowtomorrow (: yay. you're in msia now you probably wont see this. nevermind. bestfriend yo. ily boyfriend! takecare. sorry i didnt help much with THAT thing. anyway. i hope i can go over man. (: <3

N:
BESTFRIEND. omg you know you put me in a dilemna. GUYBESTFRIEND or GIRLBESTFRIEND. sigh. i cant decide. as in. how do i address you man. anyway today was just FUN. havent had that in the loooooongest time cause you dont go training anymore and neither do i. =/ ohwells. HECK we should bowl together soon often. whatever. you and your small feet. =/ you shocked me with exiled. LOL. anyway. BYE BESTFRIEND. takecare. <3

O:
ONGBONGDONG. you basket. jack me just now. ahha. you ass la. ): shouldnt have sold your 6500. if you didnt. you me atsy and nick will have it. HOW COOL IS THAT HUHH. baskettt. anyway. really fun convo just now yo. (: haha. havent had this kinda shitty session in damn long. OUTING SOON MAN. gayed. hahaha. +nick. takecare bro! <3

D:
hey. idk if your blogpost was to me. i highly doubt so after reading it for the dont know how many time. but yeah. cause idk if we were ever close in the first place. cause i doubt we were. idk. although it may not be to me. onus on me to apologise to you cause i too didnt tell you i was going. and idk whether you know if im kinda okay with her now. idk. but yeah. i just hope it doesnt affect our friendship. cause... its not like i go telling her anything or if i tell you anything from her. yeahh. idk man. its up to you i guess. if you cant trust me. i dont blame you cause. there's this thing stopping you called "ongyingxin's past" but yeah. okay nevermind. takecare! (:

2008-08-03T01:24:00.001+08:00

yingxin in the light of the sun says:
the other one. basket
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
errrrrrrrrr
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
hahaha
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
eee
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
since i guessed one already
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
the other one just tell me the SURNAME
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
gahh
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
lol
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
cannot luh
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
its dammmmm frikking give away
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
thats the clue liao
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
once you know the surname
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
there's only one
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
hahahaha
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
celine mok
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
LOL
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
lol
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
john liaw
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
no
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
NO
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
haha
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
haha
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
what siaaa
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
wait i think
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
what hoyun ah
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
hahahaha
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
nope
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
aiyahh
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
willie quek
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
jin lau
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
nope
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
loke chor
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
lol
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
nope
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
sian
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
got surname one
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
all the special surname all out one lor
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
loke is his surname la
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
zzzzzz
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
lol
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
like its not a unique surname
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
its a common one
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
but not in bowling
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
WHATT
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
kun long
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
lol
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
thats tay
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
haha
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
yeah. not that common what
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
tay is more common then the one
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
ahhhhh QWERTYUIOPLKJHGFDSASXCVBNM
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
chris hwang
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
pity the dude with that surname
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
nope
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
outside bowling the surname is common
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
tan
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
lim
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
kopi
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
what sia
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
ng
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
chiewpang
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
hahaha
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
tiac pin =/
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
nope
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
nope
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
hahaha
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
its not very difficult one
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
justin i guess already leh.
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
thennnnnnn
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
WHALAO
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
omg
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
HEADACHE
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
its damm simple one
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
i tell you you confirm diao like hell
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
vincent
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
lester
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
lynal
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
cannot be
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
gahhhhhhhhhh
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
okay whoooooooooooooo
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
NONO
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
tell me the club
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
too easy liao
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
zzzzzzz
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
i dont bowl interclub how i know siaaa
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
lol
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
lol
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
i tell you you confirm know one
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
its that simple
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
zzzzzzzzzz
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
okay you can tell me the starting of their name
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
like what you mean starting
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
first letter
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
or you give me some hangman thing
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
hahaha
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
OOH OOH
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
play hangman
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
yay
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
damm easy
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
-.-
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
a
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
lol
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
_ a _ _ _ _ _ _
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
i
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
nope
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
o
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
_ a _ _ _ o _ _
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
lol
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
WHAT THE HELL
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
dont tell me its you
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
power pacl
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
power pack
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
OMG
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
DARYL ONG
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
WHAT RUBBISH
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
so you faked up some guy. then you're the guy.
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
EEEEEEEEEEEEE.
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
wa daryl ong rubbish
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
nice
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
quite,
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
okay byee
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
haha
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
LOL
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
yea luh
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
fun what
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
-.-
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
i was like passing the phone around
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
guess who am i
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
lol
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
then you take back
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
then "guess who am i"
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
wahpiang
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
hahaha
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
pro-ed kan ni na
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
hahaha

DARYL ONG. DIEEEEEEEEEEEE.

2008-08-03T00:54:00.002+08:00

okayy. anyway. i just need to rant.

why does it seem impossible that i keep certain groups of friends man. now im like back with bestfriends. so who am i gonna lose now. what on earth is this shit. whatever la. so damn used to it. idk why. right now. no actually since long before. any " i'll be there for you " means no shit to me. cause this promise is never fulfilled. either that. or ongyingxin. you're just an embarrassment to people. seriously.

whatever. ong's making me guess who were the people talking to me just now. lol i couldnt guess huierh over the phone until she said "how can you not know its me" its soooo her. HAHA. and i guessed anthony wee right. and huierh told me justin was another one. ONE LAST ONE. who mannn. lol. and ant tried bluffing me. -.-

yingxin in the light of the sun says:
hahaha one person was you.
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
hi
tell me everything you need now , anything at all . And ill be the one whose waiting anytime you fall. says:
huh?
tell me everything you need now , anything at all . And ill be the one whose waiting anytime you fall. says:
hi?
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
as in. you're one of them over the phone right
tell me everything you need now , anything at all . And ill be the one whose waiting anytime you fall. says:
no?
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
huhhh
tell me everything you need now , anything at all . And ill be the one whose waiting anytime you fall. says:
huh?
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
anthony wee
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
lol
'ong PINKIE(: WA SEBEI CHUI AH says:
bingo
tell me everything you need now , anything at all . And ill be the one whose waiting anytime you fall. says:
hahahaha
tell me everything you need now , anything at all . And ill be the one whose waiting anytime you fall. says:
oops
yingxin in the light of the sun says:
HAHA wahlao

LOL. okay anyway. that kinda cheered me up abit. tomorrow i was supposed to meet quite a few people. i think? idk. heck. whatever. nick confirmed and so did tay. yay. okay.

BYE PEOPLE. omg i was supposed to do work. SEE LUH ONG. -.-

2008-08-03T00:42:00.004+08:00

lol okay. annoying. ohwells. i shall go try attempt homework. just finished doing abit of packing in room. yeahh. CIAOOO.

2008-08-02T22:46:00.002+08:00

AS PROMISED! pictures from jiaxin's birthday. haha.

me jia cheryl

[those 2 wished me at 12mn on bday this year. cool eh. HAHA.]

this was an unglam picture. you know why. look on top of my head. michelle's hands. HAHA. she was dancing ballet. supposedly with yongen but not with him. and jia was trying to take a pic of her but failed and took me. GREAT. lol.

CHINJIAXIN

doubles partner yooo.

2008-08-02T20:20:00.002+08:00

omg i havent blogged in the longest time. sooooo damn packed with shit to do. omg. eom. blah blah. that pw session with mr koh after we all handed up our eom. my gosh. he got us to do this activity. a few of us cried and all. gahh.

anyway. moving house next friday. to hume park 2. yeahh. how on earth will i have time to pack. yesterday i had jiaxin's bday party thing. omg it was hell fun. i'll upload a few pics. took pics with jia. i got a damn nice video of AUDREY LEE proposing to someone. whoooots. if demand is high. i may think of supplying it. ah fish econs. i screwed up the test. rahh. lol anyway. people who went for the party were. michelle, audrey, chartan, eva, shannen, eva's sister, cherylgoh, lina, myself, weixiang, shaun, mike, keppel, bowlers, yongen, candice, stacey, and a few other tk bowlers. surprisingly i saw weijie there. i got THE SHOCK OF MY LIFE. lol ohwells. played bluff and i gamed and they were like wth?! cause like i ended with 4As then like they cant say shit. ahha. ohwells. wanted to play indian poker. didnt in the end. we played this game.

lets say there are 7 people playing. we use cards A-6. and King. then whoever gets the king will show their card and that person will choose 2 numbers from A-6. after which, the whole group decides on a dare for those 2 people. and after that. the 2 people will reveal identity and they have to do the dare. DAMN FUN. ohwells. the dares that i can remember.

michelle had to do ballet with yongen
yongen had to put a G-string (michelle's present for jia) onto stacey's head. he was actually supposed to put it on for her. like not on her head. LOL.
jiaxin and michelle had to share a jelly and eat it. at the same time.
michelle had to kiss the table and shannen had to kiss the wall
i had to share this HUMONGOUS portion of jiaxin's cake with michelle.
audrey had to propose to yongen. LAWLHAHALOLROFLMAO. HAHAHAH

okay anyway. thats about it. was really really fun.

SHOUTOUT TO CJX!
THANK YOU FOR INVITING ME! (: it was seriously damn fun. haha. takecare. study hard for o's. hopefully. i'll see you there doubles partner <3

today had stupid np open. omgggg. i screwed up so badly. haha. my 3rd game was $%^&*!@#$% basket. 13+. saw nick marcus and aston today. after dont know how long. oh yeah. before the thing started. sat and talked to shaun and gen. omg shaun sucks i swear. lol. bowled on the same pair of lanes with nick marcus and aston. nick kept koping my drink and annoying me. AS USUAL. haha. kidding. but we had damn alot of fun catching up man. like usual talking with nick. with him doing the most retarded stuff. and the stupid lucky draw reminded us of this incident 3 years ago with marcus. HAHHA. "if i win i'll shave my head bald" and he really won. like a pair of socks. HAHAHA. ohwells. hmmm. OMG YEAHH.

I HAVE THE SAME PHONE SAME COLOUR AS NICK. LOLLLL. i just realised today. i thought he had N81. HAHAHA. ohwells. so now i have EXACTLY THE SAME phone as my 2 bestfriends. HOW COOL IS THAT.

since we're meeting up tomorrow. WE SHALL TAKE A PICTURE WITH OUR PHONES. THE 3 OF US. IDC IF IT'S SPAS. its a cool bestfriend thing. (: ily both man. <3

i shall go finish homework and pack some stuff. CIAOOO.

2008-07-30T23:03:00.002+08:00

Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning) - Vertical Horizon

[Verse 1]
So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

[Chorus]

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

[Verse 1]

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

anyway. submitted eom today. although its a load off my shoulders. but really. i think it would help alot if he gave us more time. no actually.. the actual deadline is on monday. why is ours like. 5 days before. its just. ARGH. it may be good for some but then consider the others man. idk. okay maybe its just me.

econs test tomorrow. chem test on friday. i was REAALLLYYY pissed when i heard there was chem test on friday. why? cause i didnt come on friday. and i asked a certain someone what important stuff was mentioned. and whats worse is that i asked what important stuff there is to take note of FOR CHEMM. what shit is this. and the reply i got was NO LA. NOTHING IMPORTANT. PRACTICALLY NOTHING LOR. and look what happens now. plans all screwed. like hello. omg it'll help if i knew in advance what we have. look at my freaking schedule. i have tomorrow to study for it. and what? there's AMC tomorrow.

screw balls. whatever. anywayyy.

yesterday had league. i won 4 points myself. idk how much we won in total. lol. we won overall and 2 games though. so thats another 3 already. hmm. oh yeah. my last game. 21+ hahaha. LOL idk why i went to strike home. cause i already won it on the 9th frame. lester was like WHAT WAS THAT FOR. haha. idk either. wah suck ass. i just cant panchek. oh yeah. best part.

i left 3,4,6,7,10 behind. i was aiming for a spare. then omg. i hit what. 6,7,10 WTH MAN. like so sure that wasnt a ber. OMG GAHHHH. the uncles were like WAH NOBODY BUY. then im like SHIT I NEVER BUY. then after that it became HENG MY MUM NOT THERE. if not she'll kaopei me like crazy. say never buy. blah blah. goshhhh. anyway. lester sent me back. along with vincent in the car. i swear. vincent is damn crappy. damn fun talking to them though.

anywayy. only found out boyfriend was sick from daryl chia last night. and im like OMG SHIT?! then today the two of us wanted to go to braddell to visit and all. hmm. found out boyfriend wasnt gonna be free so decided not to. hmm..

SORRY BOYFRIEND ):

today was RHD celebration. alot of stalls and all. i bought like 2 packets of muahchee. and like the round seaweed ring thing thing. omg i wanted to type seaweed ring i typed swearing just now. lol. oh i ate 3 baked potatoes today. omg ongyingxin what happened to stop eating so much. gahh. anyway. studied with beat and purnima for a while. then yeah. left with puni to go bpp. bubble tea. then went home. yeappp.

tomorrow. DIE. econs test. econs tutorial (havent done homework) and chem prac. okay its fun la. but the *&^%$#!. okay you should be able to get my drift. especially my class people. gosh. okay nevermind. IM VERY SORRY IM VERY SORRY. ITS YOUR CHOICE LA. *and next minute starts scolding you for not going and calls your parents*

FUCKKK YOUUUUUUU.

oh yeah. thanks to meimei and paul for helping with my eom. and julius the previous day. and everyone who gave comments today.

2008-07-27T22:32:00.002+08:00

words from your heart
confusion in your words
lost in your confusion
i am lost
what's new?

new to this phase
familiar yet not.
never on this side of the grass
here i stand
what's new?

suffocating in the greenery
drowning in water you dearly need
burning under the star you wished for
happiness on your desert, sorrow on my green
i feel your past
what's new?

there she goes.
your past and future, saving you
from the harsh that i brought
she'll always have a place on your land
i dont seem to fill that hole
what's new?

WHAT IS NEW YO. that feeling's coming back again. i should stop reading blogs.

2008-07-27T21:56:00.002+08:00

GAHH i havent blogged in a long long time. okay. so on friday. headed to school for founders day.

reached and decided to wear my blazer. thank goodness i convinced manda to go. anyway. she would have regretted not going. cause.

IT WAS HELL ASS GREAT. omg how i miss mg. and i guess i really miss misskon and her nice long speeches. the new principal was so not engaging. her powerpoint was more of a bragging session of mg's achievements. thats so not mg. gahh. anyway.

took quite a few pictures and didnt manage to take with some. we were supposed to have a class photo taken... UNSUCCESSFUL. haha. i'll upload more pics soon.

after, went to town with agnes and chartan. i wanted to watch xfiles but then i didnt know it was out and i heard chartan say exiles. sooo i was like HUH WHAT?! then i was like ahh anything. haha. so we ended up watching promnight. i swear char and i were so freaking scared during the damn movie. omggg. yeah. but i guess after the movie im kinda fine. ahha. and then i also realised that mg founders day dinner is at the hotel next door. yeah. mandarin hotel? yeah.

met michelle after while she went to get her seaweed. went home after that. nothing much.

these few days i've been talking to ense alot (: really fun. her entertaining me and all. THANK YOU! (:

i miss talking to loads of people. like... BOYFRIEND. AUDREY. NICK.

jiaxin invited me for her bday party thing. should i go? stupid nick's not going =/. rahh.

anyway. i gotta rush homework now. tata.

ohohoh. i'll blog damn ownage pics. serious. 1 damn funny pic. 2 damn own mahjong cards. 1 damn own word challenge score. WHOOTS.

byebye people. takecare all.

2008-07-26T12:29:00.002+08:00

SPECIALLY DEDICATED POST TO A SPECIAL FRIEND (:

yooo. you and audrey are ALWAYS there for me (:
bitching sessions dont end with post-bitching syndrome of fear.
cause i know my secret's safe with you (:
"actions speak louder than words"
so i shall keep things simple.
i really thank you for being a great friend.
thanks for entertaining me too (:
IM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU LIKE YOU ARE FOR ME.
takecare! <3

2008-07-25T00:32:00.002+08:00

STRESS! omg

okay ongyingxin. come on.

im gonna set targets for promos.

econs. from E to D
maths. from D to B
chem. from S to D
chinese. from D to B
gp. from D to C
lit. from U to D

COME ONNNNNNNNNN. start studying for no reason. cause its cool.

TODAY IS MUMMY'S BIRTHDAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM! thanks for putting up with my crap for 17 years. and for everything. thanks for being just great. ily mum! <3 (:

anyway. especially cause its my mum's birthday. im setting a resolution. DO WELL. be a geek. it pays to be geeky. like seriously.

2008-07-23T22:56:00.002+08:00

okay pretty much cleared everything out. i feel much better now.

(:

thats a first in a few days. i think. anyway.

even if i wasnt your bestfriend. i'd always be yours. and im always here for you.

and hey. takecare. get off crutches soon.

i hate integration. it screws up my life. idk how to dooooo.

and i hate eom. omg. but its individual work. must make sure can do well. yeah.

ohhhhh. i hate lit too. rahh.

i dont like jc. especially _jc. yes.

2008-07-23T18:33:00.001+08:00

She says she has no time for you now
She says she has no time

2008-07-22T20:24:00.002+08:00

today was hectic.

didnt bring my pencil box. didnt bring my notes. didnt do my homework. didnt bring my laptop. had pe. gosh. like just die ongyingxin. anyway. i just idk. i feel so tired of everything. life. just everything thats happening.

didnt really have a good time in school. during gp i was really down. idk why. i looked at my phone. and i was reminded of stuff. anyway. i was in the lt and then i saw something and i everything just came back. idk. enseilia gohhh ): i need to talk to you now. gosh. idk man.

msged audrey today. she replied quite a few times but i was having pe and all. yeah. didnt reply. sorry. thank you loads for your concern. (:

anyway. have stupid SC investiture tomorrow. all sports pres and vicepres, classmanager and assistant class manager have to go. rahh.

i think i'll stay back to study or something. really lagging behind and all. have to teach wanxuan transformations tomorrow. and someone else. i forgot. nevermind. i still gotta learn partial fractions. everytime i think about it. or everytime miss seah mentions it. i just feel sooooo... idk. i like just feel im done thinking about this chapter.

2008-07-21T17:34:00.003+08:00

moved temporarily

simplyoutofcontrol.blogspot.com

2008-07-20T23:06:00.001+08:00

And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cause I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And designer love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

[chorus]
So take these words
And sing out loud
Cause ~~everyone is forgiven~~ now
Cause tonight's the night the world begins again

I need someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child who saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

[chorus]

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cause ~~everyone is forgiven~~ now
Cause tonight's the night the world begins again
Cause tonight's the night the world begins again

2008-07-20T03:22:00.002+08:00

to someone:
in·se·cu·ri·ty
–noun, plural -ties.
1. lack of confidence or assurance; self-doubt: He is plagued by insecurity.
2. the quality or state of being insecure; instability: the insecurity of her financial position.
3. something insecure: the many insecurities of life.

idk why. but yeah. thats just it. maybe i'm losing you to your past.

to another someone:
dis·tance
–noun
1. the extent or amount of space between two things, points, lines, etc.
2. the state or fact of being apart in space, as of one thing from another; remoteness.
3. a linear extent of space: Seven miles is a distance too great to walk in an hour.
4. an expanse; area: A vast distance of water surrounded the ship.
5. the interval between two points of time; an extent of time: His vacation period was a good distance away.
6. remoteness or difference in any respect: Our philosophies are a long distance apart.
7. an amount of progress: We've come a long distance on the project.
8. a distant point, place, or region.
9. the distant part of a field of view: a tree in the distance.
10. absence of warmth; reserve: Their first meeting in several years was hampered by a certain distance between them.
11. Music. interval (def. 6).
12. aesthetic distance.
13. Horse Racing. (in a heat race) the space measured back from the winning post that a horse must reach by the time the winner passes the winning post or be eliminated from subsequent heats.
14. Mathematics. the greatest lower bound of differences between points, one from each of two given sets.
15. Obsolete. disagreement or dissension; a quarrel. –verb (used with object)
16. to leave behind at a distance, as at a race; surpass.
17. to place at a distance.
18. to cause to appear distant. —Idioms
19. go the distance,
a.(in horse racing) to be able to run well in a long race.
b.Informal. to finish or complete something, esp. something difficult, challenging, or requiring sustained effort.
20. keep at a distance, to treat coldly or in an unfriendly manner.
21. keep one's distance, to avoid becoming familiar or involved; remain cool or aloof.

unintentional/intentional. its best.

im losing both hands to decendants of Eve.

2008-07-20T02:33:00.003+08:00

im BOREDDDDD. fishhh.

anyway. i can feel a sorethroat coming. dammit.

tomorrow i guess im gonna go for training. my bowling sucks. not like wasnt sucky. but its still sucky. and something needs to be done yo.

idk. im not in the mood to blog. and i wanna change blog soon. yes i said that long ago. but now. like seriously. who reads my blog man.

adios

2008-07-19T20:52:00.002+08:00

yoyoyo. havent been blogging. lol.

hmm. oh yeah. BADDDDDDDD news. turns out. sas wants to see those who failed lit in lt1 on wednesday. DIEEEEEEEEEEEE. omg. im screwed =/ anywayyy.

things due on monday.
written report chapter 1&2
gp homework
gp reflection
econs corrections
econs essay and case study
lit journal
*i know there's more but i forgot*

anyway. yeah pretty much screwed. cause obviously! i havent started on anything.

today woke up quite late. had this fever thing. yeah. quite bad. since last night i had the worst headache. even when talking to ense. no not cause of her and her OMGOMGOMG OH MY GAWD bimboness. but yeah. lol. cause of lack of sleep and all. then i slept quite early. couldnt keep myself awake to talk to audrey and ense online. then even this morning when i woke up. fever. rahh.

anywayyyy. tomorrow i think i'll go for training. apparently there would be combined schools rolloff soon. yeah. i hope so. AND I HOPE I CAN GO =/ idk. ): anyway.

training with helmi was quite funny. idk. his first sentence i wanted to laugh. hi err. my name is coach helmi. HAHAHA. COACH HELMI. haha. sounded odd. cause like. used to hearing helmi. anywayy.

since my internet's screwed. im tapping into neighbour's one. and my neighbour's cheapskate. they hardly turn on their internet thing. basket. so yeah. i dc like freeeee. and so. i spend my time on my piano. dont ask me why. these few days im like addicted or something. i desperately wanna learn how to play everytime and marriage d'amour. cant play at all. cant coordinate treble and bass. RAHHHHH. i can now playyy... starting of boston. starting of when you're gone. starting of wait for you. and like some parts of fur elise. like the first idk. yeah. SOME. lol..

anyway. i shall post a shoutout to:
AUDREY-BURPER-LEEHUIMIN and ENSEILIA-SELFENTERTAININGBIMBO-GOHSIQI (:

AUDREY:
yoyoyo. I READ YOUR BLOG. lol its okay yo. heck. you're still a great friend. (: no worries im fine. and oh eh. TEACH ME SECRET (: eh woman must study hard kay. O's O's O's. BURP LESSER. i swear i should have gotten you the frog. its green. and like you sound like a frog when you burp (: TAKECARE! loves <3

ENSEILIAGOH:
HEY YOU BIMBO (: omg. i swear you're OMGOMGGOMGGGOMGAWDDD. lol. its damn trademark. lol. and the cow picture. thanks for brightening my day. when i was like half dying. like headache and all (: HEARTFELT TALK (: rahh. i hate boarding. it separates you and audrey FROM THE WORLD. actually. me. i'm not the world. but yeah. WHATEVER. okay anyway. TTYL! TAKECARE! ILY!<3

SINCE IM TALKING TO HER NOW
I SHALL WRITE BOYFRIEND A NICE SHOUTOUT. UNLIKE HER. SHES NOT NICE (: haha

HEY BOYFRIEND! omg. you're like. BIMBO. like celine. you two didnt get the cow picture. how can. and omg. you must study hard. and shoo your gp teachers lol. and bananawoman. i dont call her that okay. im quoting you. LOL. and ehh. TEACH ME PARTIAL FRACTIONS. idk how to do. basket. how siaaa. thanks for entertaining me too. like past few days. and like her blog. remember. HEHEX. LOL. ohwells. EH DONT SHOOT ME. HAHAHHAHAH. okay nevermind. takecare boyfriend. ILOVEYOU! <333

2008-07-17T20:26:00.003+08:00

YESSS!!! JOYYYYYYYYY!!! OMGGGGG! (:

MG WON CDIVISION. YEAH MAN. dejavu of year 2005. :D ALL THE WAY MAN. beat ssp. anywayyy.

ALL THE BEST TO THOSE IN MASTERS!!! i shall go down to watch. (:
obviously to support.

im bored man.

loads of shit due this week and all. rahh. okay nevermind. i shall go watch teevee first. FIND ME ONLINE LATER (:

audreylee. if you're reading this. YOU KNS!!! change my ffs name ):

2008-07-17T00:11:00.004+08:00

somehow, i just sense this barrier between us. like something's just missing. okay that sounds ironic. but yeah. idk why. it just doesnt seem the same anymore ):

so. guybestfriend's not in the best mood recently =/ not to worry man. cheer up yo. you'll always have marcus tan. LOL! haha. okay but like. idk. cheer up. ignore her. she doesnt deserve you man. [edit] OKAY RECENTLY MEANING SUNDAY. [/edit]

is it safe to say that bestfriends dont last?

2008-07-16T23:47:00.002+08:00

GOODNESSS. i swear. i need proper time management. promos are like how far away. and my nice stylish grades are like what. CDDESU. wtf. and C isnt even really counted. cause its chinese. no im not cheena. thanks.

anywayy. so im officially moving out end of this month to hume park 2. really gonna miss this place. actually. more of the neighbourhood. mg is like just in sight. like i can look out of my kitchen now and see the school. in future. not gonna happen. and i would pass by kap on my way home. now i wont anymore. RAHH. things are just gonna be different. nevermind. just hope i can move back to somewhere near here soon (:

just finished typing chapter 2 of my WR. whee. i think its quite bad =/ ohwells. now i gotta rush econs corrections and then do the 3 essay things. and err. maths. OMG. okay shit. and err. nothing much. chinese listening tomorrow. WOOHOO. A SMACKING U.

2008-07-12T21:47:00.003+08:00

you know what. idk who you are anymore. many a times you question our friendship. slight misunderstandings or not. whatever it is. you tell me your blogposts arent for me. well. if they are for me. idk what to say cause idk what the hell i even did. if they arent for me. then well. thanks for telling me the truth. the appearance: that i am the one being a bitch and ignoring, being a total ass. idk if i can call this reality. but how about you. if you can drop a tag [not to me] and ignore my msges on msn asking for help for something. or even a simple HEY(: before that. insignificant says i. what say you.

idk. tell me i'm wrong. please do.

oh yeah. today was the cca forum thing. wasted half my life there. fun part was probably with the netball with gracia and rachel. and disturbing gracia. lol. nothing much. met cel for lunch to study and all. but i couldnt exactly do anything. didnt bring anything i knew how to do. LOL. anyway. had loads of fun. sorry cel for wasting your day. and THANK YOU.

oh i found out something from jare'el. to you if you're reading this. you know who you are. for goodness's sake. if you like him. actually not if. you told me once before. he's like your crush. and people tell me that you have a crush on him too. you're the one who knows him personally. and thinks he is good looking. hellooo. i dont even know him. and i didnt go YEAH OMG I AGREEEE when you made that comment about him so you can tell my stand. like hello. you like him dont have to drag me in and say i like him. wtf man. get a life. you're either using the fact that i dont know anyone there except jare'el such that i wont find out and even if i do i cant clarify. either that. or you're just... actually no. i dont know what your motive is. so like forget it. do what you want. im used to it.

2008-07-11T21:17:00.002+08:00

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

ongyingxin you should just block and delete. makes your life a whole lot easier.
but. that would be avoiding. and if i wanted to do that to certain people who remind me of how badly i will do for A CERTAIN SUBJECT. i cant avoid. and so. live with it.

2008-07-11T19:58:00.003+08:00

sigh. i got back lit today. freaking 8/25. NEHNEH. omg man. overall i got like 34% but they moderated for the whole level so i got 39%. fish man. first U. only U. OMG MANNN. WHYYY ):

anyway. didnt wanna go for chem today. so..
me: mdm goh. can i not go for chem today. i got something important. i'll find out stuff from friends
her: you didnt do well right? *looks at class list with marks and sees my S* oh actually i think you're fine. you're alright. you can do well one. dont know what happen to you
me: HAR?! huhhhhh. i failed leh.
her: yeah i know but you got potential. *starts calling people up too then has a private talk with us. and yadayada*
me: *after the talk* so can i not go today?
her: ya okay.

COOOLIOS. hahahaha

so i went to meet denise today for lunch. since i had spare time i went to beauty world to try my luck. uncle richard was in his shop. COOL. haha. so i stoned there till she came. had a really great time during lunch. catching up? yeah. talking and all. (: i am gonna create a DENISE SHOULD STAY IN SG CAMPAIGN (: haha. anyway. that girl paid for my lunch -.- WAHLAO. i owe you one (: movie remember. like end of year. we supposed to go watch zohan. END OF YEAR AH. set. HAHA. thanks dear for the lunch date. (: lovelove<3

anyway. on a lighter noteeee. lighter than the fact that i failed. LOL. GUESS WHAT.

COOOOL RIGHT. FINALLY BEAT MICHELLE (: omg. 28K. maybe cause my first round i hit 3k. and i had really easy sets of words.

JOYYY(:

2008-07-10T22:09:00.002+08:00

today's just such a bad day.

firstly. gp. 27/50 wth is wrong with you ongyingxin. idk man. comment stated "language generally fluent" and i failed language -.- okayyyy. whatever. screw it. i cant believe this. better buck up man. like i cant keep hanging on to like. 54. its a D. FOR GP. oh my gee.

anyway. then next. math. EVEN WORSE. i swear. after looking at the questions with a clear mind. and like being more awake. i can roughly come up with basic equations. so there goes my marks. 31/60. wtf man. like 51.6%. gosh. D. im just disappointed. really. like 9/10 9/10 then i get this sucky grade for MYE. WAKE UP WAKE UP. you're seriously getting a D for your best subject. no wonder you such at all the rest.

so far. my grades are...
chem: 42.1% - S
math: 51.6% - D
econs: 45.3% - E
gp: 54% - D
chinese: 58.8% - C
lit: [for poem alone; havent gotten P&P yet. will update tomorrow] 36% - U
i freaking pray hard i dont get a U for lit. i just wanna pass. or subpass. just no Us.

tomorrow's gonna be a long stressful day. plus. getting back our EoM. great. finally. -.-

2008-07-09T23:48:00.003+08:00

woahwoahwoah. just watched ASAL last episode. like the reunion thing. OMGEE. lol. kristy's last sentence totally shut the bitch up yo. like omggg. like WHAM BAM JACK RIGHT IN YOUR FACE. like omg. i mean how can she call kristy a fake bitch. lol who's the one who just starts crying all of a sudden. then like before reading something. had this weep. then like sounded alright all over again. like HELLO. hahaha.

ohwells. reality teevee man.

anyway. i got back econs today. efffff. but. was lucky to pass. i was gonna kill myself if i didnt. cause like. i only studied for econs? yeah. anyway. got 45.33333 so like i think i may have failed. cause like ca would pull me down. omg. xinpei's damn proo. 54%. grats man. anyway. then errr. oh yeah. gonna get gp back tomorrow. hmm. today's training was relatively productive? i guess. yeah. anyway. this week's gonna be a hectic week. ohwells. okay im gonna go off now. reeeeeeally tired. so yeah. ciaooo.

You have been followed back to the same place I sat with you drink for drink.
Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist.
Everything we had, everything we had,
everything we had, everything we had is no longer there.

You saw for yourself, the way it played out.
For you, I am blinded.
For you, I am blinded, for you.

I'll be with you wherever you go,
through the eyes of a fly on the wall.
~~imy~~

2008-07-08T23:16:00.003+08:00

RAHHHH. today was the first day of school. BAD BAD BAD.

got to know our new co-form and gp teacher. yup. mdm suzanna. okay shes quite nice. my opinion of her is changing. shouldnt have judged her by her straightforwardness and her accent. ohwells.

got back chem and chinese today. goshh. i got a S for chem and C for chinese.

chem was er.. satisfactory? in a sense. cause i hardly studied. only studied for like what? kinetic theory and i fucked that up cause like i forgot definitions during the paper. LOL. ohwells. yeah. apparently my class had 4 Bs, 4 Cs and 1 subpass and then 17 Us. =/ i only know other than the 4 senior J1s, huimin, kaiwen, eunice? i think. and then dont know who else. and someone told me clifford didnt pass. but i doubt so right. =/ idk. okay nevermind. if he didnt then not all senior J1s passed. ongyingxin ah. study hard please. the only thing that pulled you up was your full marks for the stoichiometry question. and its only a subpass overall. 3 more marks and you would have gotten an E. sigh. WHYYYY.

anyway, chinese. i got a C. which was quite disappointing. could have done better for paper 2. sigh. double blow. plus like i know i screwed up my oral already. which means like i need to do SUPERBLY WELL for like paper 1 and 2 and listening for As. so far my paper and 1 is quite disappointing. a supposed 40 got reconsidered to be a 35. SIGH. and. idk. actually i think i could have gotten worse. my new laoshi. the super zi-ai, ai-mei one. according to emily. niang zhong the niang. LOL. ohwells. yeah. her marking is damn lenient. i wrote quite off point. as in. not off point in that sense. but like my intro was too long. improportionate to the body and ending and all. so yeah. okay i want her to be more strict. no way im gonna be contented with my chinese marks. nope. im gonna take it that i got an E. cause like. i would have gotten an E if chen lao shi marked my script.

anywayyy. tomorrow's gonna be a bad day. i feel it coming. plans for tomorrow are already screwed. after farid confirmed about friendlies and we booked lanes. then like 7/8 of the j2s cant make it. so we had to cancel friendlies but since we already booked the lanes. like gonna bowl there anyway. yup. no choice. ohwells. and like tomorrow we have lit. that meanns.... idk. a major letdown. the main gist that i came up with, just screams at the examiner that i misread it. i really think i did. so ohwells. grats ongyingxin. there goes your H1. sigh. why do you even take lit. its so not you. idk. if i ever get retained. PCME ftw. sigh. then again. lit's a fun sub to do. IDK. ahh. the stress. anyway. there's econs tomorrow too. which sucks too. cause ongyingxin is a science person. im gonna do so badly for econs too. i can feel it. i just prayyyyyy for a subpass. like omg you know how badly i need to pass econs and math? i freaking need to pass those two at least. like to be promoted. 2 H2 and 1 H1. like omgee. okay if i fail lit at least i passed 2 H2s. but we all know econs is not possible to pass. especially for a letdown like me. so lets just leave it as that. math. okay dont wanna talk about it. im gonna brood about my marks and how over-confident i was about math. that killed me so badly.

OOH. and like i freaking gotta set up cca booth on friday. i have pw on friday. and i have chem on friday. HOWEVER. denise chan agreed to meet me for lunch so i have already made like arrangements should she be able to make it. so i'll meet her. and pw chem i'll like find out from friends. what nice pw mates i have yo. and then for cca booth. i'll set it up in advance. oh yeah. and i asked mr wong for the details and he tell me he dont have, =.= i shall go ask mr yaw. WHEE. then my saturday morning is kapo-ed. idc. i'll make sure i get to meet drey to study on saturday. (:

anywayy. as you can see. idk why. but no way im like putting school ahead of my friends. especially some (: like BOYFRIEND. audreylee. denise. celine. michelle. ense. oh yeah. and nick. mmhmm. anyway. oh yeah! sorry boyfriend. i still feel bad for that day. I SHALL MAKE IT UP TO YOU. instead of you chanting I SHALL HUG YOU WHEN I SEE YOU. i'll tell you now i'll give you a nice big purple dinosaur hug OGGAY! (: anyway. you have a freaking stalker on fb. some f-ed up asshole called clement keeps buying you on ffs. tell him screw off. bugger. anyway. and HOIII. denise chan. i read your blog. KANNASAI. want me to slap you isit. stupid gay poet x) i shall come up with YOUR TYPE OF POEM. for you.

denise is nice
she likes to eat rice

when you feel everything's wrong
go listen to jay's song

when you feel down
dont put on a frown

when you need someone dear
BEANSPROUT IS HERE

YAY JOY omg. i actually came up with one. ORIGINAL CAN (: just for you DC. someone like you shouldnt feel unwanted. you should feel so wanted. just like tamalessam. LOL clifton's age group team. anyway. YES. cheer up yo. and you're not a failure. cause i said so. unless you wanna say im wrong. ): IF YOU HAVE THE HEART TO HUH! anyway you better not decline me again on friday. BASKET. haha.

anyway. DREY LEE. must study hard okayyy. our study dates have always turned out failing. cause we talk the previous day and wake up super late and then end up going out and not studying. THIS WEEK. change change. wake up early kay. i'll be free 11 onwards i think. YUP. we shall meet up and mug like nerds. oh i can buy nerds (: and smarties. LOL. OKAY NEVERMIND. idk why im sooooo okay nevermind. STOP BURPING. try letting some gas out the other way man. =/

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i forgot to mention. michelle beat me on WC. 22k. I DUNCHH LIKE YOU WORX ): lol. i shall beat you someday somehow. WHEEEEEEEEE. heck. we should go out again. then i can go to your house right. yay. terry's house. LOL. oh yeah. your laptop's the love. so easy to type mann.
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2008-07-07T20:50:00.002+08:00

I HAVENT BEEN BLOGGING. so here it goes (:

*rewind to friday*

FRIDAY
went back to pj for bowling meeting and all. presented mrwong with like coaches and all. and like our problems. i think we pretty much need solutions quick. anyway. we KINDA got our solutions already. hmm. then left to go to mg to meet michelle. and to inform the office that i was gonna be present for FDC. anyway. yeah. went to townnn. ate pepperlunch. (: then we like walked around and all. saw like pretty shirts that i HOPE to buy. haha. anyway. then we went to heeren. yup. long time since i went there. saw rachel khoo. like the moment i walked in. then i heard someone shout YINGXIN! then like i turned and looked at her. it took me a while to process that its rachel. cause likee... she looks super different. yup. haha. anyway. michelle bought a shirt to change out of. and then yeah. we went to ps. went to the arcade for a while then yeah. we were supposed to watch a movie but cause michelle like spilt coke all over her bag and like we had to go to the toilet and she cleaned up the coke while i dried her book using the handddryer. haha. yeah so she headed home. i fiddled with her drumset for awhile while she bathed.

then I PLAYED WORDCHALLENGE! firstly. i beat my own score with her account. then i was like NOOOOOOOOOOOOO. like 17k i think. then i played my account. after multiple attempts. i beat myself. lol. i got like 20k. HAHAHA. i was like YAYYYYYY!!!! ohwells. then like headed to rtc. was supposed to play initial d and parapara. LOL. i wanted to learn man. it looked fun. anyway. the elizabeth came with us to rtc too. lol the machine like broke down. so michelle and i decided to bowl with house ball like 1 game. HAHA. damn funny. anyway. my mum came down soon after then i bowled and tried to continue correcting my footwork. how screwed is it now.

anyway. OH YEAH. when i was at michelle's house. mr wong called me. and amazingly. he got like our first choice coach. helmi. like OMG! i was like REALLY!? then i was like did you tell him our pay. and he said yeah and i was like OMG SERIOUS?! cool. okay so now he's gonna confirm with mrs wee and all and then back to helmi. and then mr wong said helmi would only train us at csc which is like HELLO! THATS WHAT WE WANTED. OMG STYLE YO.

so friday was hell ass fun.

SATURDAY
audrey and i woke up super late. IS IT SUCH A SURPRISE? haha. ohwells. then yeah. michelle's bag dried so like she decided to come with us (: so i met michelle at newton so we could train down to amk. cause like yeah michelle wanted to make her nebo mip tapz card. anywayy. then we walked around. and audrey came. she was wearing the nike BALLS shirt. i swear that shirt is damn nice. AHHA. anyway. yeah. we went to nebo hub to eat. then like halfway we decided to watch zohan. so they bought tickets. the food came while they were gone. it was squeezed onto the table like some plates were 1/3 off the table. anyway. when they came back i finished my cube. i was gonna like push the fish on my plate. then mine was one of that stupid plates. so like it toppled on me. wtf right. haha. anyway. so yeah. changed table. waited for them to finish eating. arcaded a while. then yeah. went to the cinema. we were so engrossed with the games then we like forgot time. and i already tapped a credit when michelle said its like 9.30 already so like oops. my bad. anyway. zohan was like DA BOMBXZ. discodiscogoodgood. and fizzle bubeleh. LOL. damn funny yo. anyway. still on my to-watch list: wanted, sex in the city and hancock. ohwells. school's starting soon. kinda sucks.

so it was super late after the movie. we managed to catch the last train towards marina bay (: so we took it and ohhh. yeah. we decided to crash at michelle's house and all. cause like audrey would have to change train and she'll probably miss the one on the green line so yeah. so yeah. michelle's grandpa picked us up and we went to her house. i swear i LOVE michelle's room. like omg la. and i just found out recently that her house was used as THE LAST SCENE OF I NOT STUPID 1. OMGEEEEE. yeah. terry's house. OMG MAN. anywayyy. yeah. chris dragged us down to eat at like close to 1. he kept bugging us. so he dragged michelle. while i tickled audrey out of her chair and down. haha. anyway. we didnt eat. and after helping chris drag audrey down.. that asshole. cause like either audrey or michelle was like eh tau why you helping chris ah? then... chris replied CAUSE SHE WANTS ME TO BUY HER ON FACEBOOK!. and i was like OKAY LETS GO BACKKKK. LOL. anyway. then like michelle stayed behind cause shes a nice sister. then audrey and i stayed back too. with audrey's scary trying to scare chris by standing behind him but shocking me instead. anyway. yeah. michelle told chris to bring the noodles upstairs but instead he brought it to her room. LOL. so we like played alot of shit in the room. yup. i took chris's com and all. and we watched derrick barry. chris was like omg. i swear he was so turned on by her. LOL. chris is retarded. anyway. so drey taught me how to play bridge. and i spent half the time playing zany bridge before i slept. YUP!

anyway. highlight of that time. something damn funny that i forgot to write in. like chris grabbed audrey's phone. then like audrey was trying to get it back but you knoww... her ahemheightahem. so obviously she couldnt get it from chris. like desperate measures include getting on the bed and jumping on chris. didnt work. LOL. and like michelle and i were stoning and talking on the bed or sofa bed. cant remember. then they like fell. audrey first and chris on her. HAHAHA. HILARIOUS YO. then michelle and i were like omg that is so wrong. ANYWAY. then continued talking. HAHA.

the next morning. chris kept coming and annoying me. like
chris: *pokingme* tau ah tau ah tau ah [x4328917382981]
me: WHATTTTTTTTTTTT
chris: *repeats what he did*
me: STOP POKING MEE ):
chris: *slight pushes while continuing the chanting*
me: GOOOOO AWAYYYYYYYY OMG ): ass.
chris: *leaves the room*

hahaha. then yeah. he did that a couple of times. ohwells. at least i convinced him to buy me when he gets the money. yay. joy. oh yeah. and he annoyed audrey loads of times too. LOL. like cause chris kept asking if i was ticklish. then i like twitched but said no. and then i exclaimed. BUT SHES MORE TICKLISH while pointing to audrey on the bed. then she was like DONT TOUCH ME!! haha. and chris went over and like poked her and she squealed. HAHAHAHA. overall. he annoyed us. SIGH CHRIS. ohwells. anyway.

that day was hell ass fun. then yeah. audrey's parents picked her up and they sent me back (: so nice. (: then yeah. i took a quick shower and grabbed like a set of clothes then went to chevrons to do survey. saw people like iris jerome jevarn nicholas and cheryl tan. HAHA. was quite fun disturbing cheryl tan (: anyway. yeah. after that. i took a bus back. yup. nothing much.

so today. sunday. was supposed to meet ade but like damn shagged. dont really wanna go to town. anyway. then some long story. whatever. then decided to go to bpp to buy bubble tea. when celine knew she decided to come. cool. anyway. so like went and walked around there with her. nothing much. went home after. YUP. tomorrow's the start of school. again. the dread man. i seriously dont wanna go back. i think im much better homeschooling. should i be in another school. my opinion of school starting would probably be different. OHWELLS. only one word yo. SCREW.

2008-07-05T00:51:00.003+08:00

FUCK LA! I DONT WANNA MOVE HOUSE AGAIN. WTF. somemore. this time. its further away from mg. which means what? nearer to that screwed up school too. FUCK SHIT OKAY.

2008-07-04T03:16:00.005+08:00

the wonderful effects of being stressed and thinking too much. you resort to the most desperate way of relaxation. to switch from thinking about something. to thinking as well. but of other stuff. so i went to play word challenge. yesterday i tried means and ways to surpass my 14.9k and hit 15k. well. i'll let the picture and your reaction. describe the score that i just hit.

yes i know. crazy. i couldnt believe it too. but hey. you know what. i think i'll just like live things day by day. afterall. its my fault that i ended up in this state. whatever it is. i'll just leave things to God. cause i cant change anything anyway. i just hope i can like let everything go. like just leave the past man. like i dont wanna think about it anymore. and i just want to have like peace of mind. i dont wanna start having this emotional rollercoaster all over again especially like when the stupid things come rolling in. like tay said. just do what i can. the rest. just f*ck it. and anyway. i just dont wanna think about anything. and i seriously pray that i can take everything off my mind. like just leave things to God. if it is meant to be that i get a change of school. then things are meant to be. if i end up being retained. maybe that is an opportunity for me to eliminate an option and just choose a whole new 2 years somewhere else.

thanks audrey for like. talking to me. even after talking to anthea. sorry you had to talk at like 2+. but i really appreciate it man. thanks for being there (: and thanks boyfriend for offering help and all online. i really appreviate it too (: and thanks to michelle hwang(: meeting tomorrow and all (:

i swear. 2 groups of people i love in this world to bits. bowlers and mgfamily. mg people never fail to be there for you. we're one whole big family. like although there's constant bitching. we all just end up fine after awhile. its like some drama season like treehill or something. friendships break and mend. and bowlers. like we all just never fail to like have at least one bowler in your to-call list when you reeeeally need someone to talk to. thats just us. even if it is like 5 in the morning. if we're not half-dead asleep. I LOVE MG! I LOVE BOWLERS! (:

oh yeah. happy birthday grace tan (: you're 14 already. only 2 more years. and you're 16. and you'll realise shucks i need 2 more years to be like FREE! anyway. happy birthday. if you even read this =/

OH YEAH! just like. as a place for me to write this. I WISH ALL THE BEST TO THOSE WHO ARE AT ABC! all the best. blaze the lanes man.

i just chanced upon jazreel's blog just now. my goodness. her link never changed since like. i was in sec 1. holy. 5 years. wowww. i think changed account once and changed my blog like 10 times already. lol.

SHOUTOUTS
audrey: hey you. thanks LOADS for like helping me and all. like listening to me rant. especially after like the stupid things roll. after singapore open. im a happier person. cause after i talked to someone more. and like idk. got to know her more. i realised how nice she was and how much of a great friend she was. now i wonder who that person is. lets see. hmmmm. hongkongopengradedbchampion? (: lol. thank you loads audreylee. for like everything. i love youuuu. oh yeah. see you didnt burp today. good whattt. its not me i swear.

boyfriend: hey boyfriend. omg man. thank you so much for everything. idk. like offering help and all. and like omg. the up and down and up and down. idk. we've come such a long way man. and yeah. hey buck up alright. prove your gpteachercurse wrong. you shall do well. (: i was kidding about asking you to retain. obviously i dont mind you retaining la. but like i want you to do well too man. cause you can. and you will! then you can prove your bananawoman wrong. i got no opinion. and i said YOUR banana woman. i call her by her proper name okay. cause so far she helped me loads. anyway. i too hope i can go join you over at sa. but we'll see yeah. idk man. i'll just like see what i can do. but! at least you can do well for pw. (: so you better. i love you boyfriend :D sunday man. dintaifung? ((: haha. like at 9am =/

2008-07-03T23:53:00.002+08:00

REGRET & REMORSE by Gary Jurechka

Now that it is over,
is there a lesson
to be learned from all this?
A bright side? A silver lining?

Only a lesson learned
much too late.
The bright side is black and
the silver lining is tarnished
beyond cleansing.

I never meant to break your heart,
but then you broke mine.

Sometimes you don't get a second chance
and some things you lose in life
can never be found again.

And I hadn't realized until I died
that your love was the only thing
keeping me alive.

i just saw this poem online. i decided to post it. you know what. not much on love. more on the bolded parts.

2008-07-03T22:58:00.003+08:00

I JUST REALISED. everysinglefuckingtime. they do something stupid. i start stressing. how im gonna fail like shit. and you know what. all the regrets and all start filling my mind again. how i regret what i did before. and how so much has happened. and how i could be in sa now. with medals at adiv. ongyingxin what did you do to your life man. and you may even be in mars or ade's class now. fuck.

2008-07-03T21:51:00.002+08:00

I CAN FIND 999 REASONS WHY I HATE MY SCHOOL.

THEY ALL REVOLVE AROUND THE SAME THING.

OMFG.

IM GOING CRAZY. WHATS THE POINT OF HAVING A FUCKING BRAIN WITHOUT USING IT MAN.

-.-

AUDREY LEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! HELP!! OMG.

uncle adam NEEDS to save me. i swear.

okay ongyingxin. you know you screwed up oral cause you have lack of practice. oh look. what kinda school doesnt make you practice during class. anyway. point is. you fucked up chinese. you'll fuck up something else too. make sure you can DO SOMETHING SOON. and then get out. and do well in everything else. yes. for all you know. you can retake chinese somewhere else. fuckpw
TAY SHIN YAR YOU DONT KNOW HOW LUCKY YOU ARE!!!!! -.- and i swear. why didnt i get into ac. is 14 really sucky. is my bowling that shitty -.- wtf. top 10 among those in j1 and j2 also not enough. fuck sia.

2008-07-02T22:08:00.004+08:00

just finished watching ASAL. like omg. how funny. like TT gets her heart broken again. SEE. SHE SHOULD HAVE KICKED THE BI EARLIER AND LET THE LESBIAN BRITTANY STAY YO. im sure brittany would have taken the damn key. ohwells. and i saw in the last part. like next week's episode thing. ohmygee. TT scolds kristy. like zomg. wtf man. ohwells.

bi accepts bi and bi rejects bi.

WHAT HAS THE WORLD COME TO. lol.

LOL IM LISTENING TO JIMMY EAT WORLD! LIKE 23. ((: i suddenly became obsessed with it. cause i started watching OTH AGAIN (: omg. cmm (:

anyway. i was talking to denise. damn funny.

yingxin at the bottom of the blackest hole says:
ahhh i shall go watch OTH later (:
yingxin at the bottom of the blackest hole says:
yay
Denise † says:
I'm listening to the music now :)
Denise † says:
owns.
yingxin at the bottom of the blackest hole says:
like what music. i suddenly felt like listening to 23 that day and now im obsessed with it. idk why
Denise † says:
I'm listeing to it!!!!!
yingxin at the bottom of the blackest hole says:
OH SERIOUS
Denise † says:
Listening*
Denise † says:
Kimmy eats world!
yingxin at the bottom of the blackest hole says:
OMG MAN DENISE CHAN
yingxin at the bottom of the blackest hole says:
LOL
Denise † says:
Jimmy*
Denise † says:
HAHAHAHHA.
yingxin at the bottom of the blackest hole says:
OMG OMG NICE TYPO
Denise † says:
Kimmy.
yingxin at the bottom of the blackest hole says:
ohmygee
yingxin at the bottom of the blackest hole says:
omg okay i cant stop laughing

LOL. dont you all agree its like a damn cool typo. HAHAHA.

anyway. i shall post 23 lyrics. its NICE (:

23-JimmyEatWorld
I felt for sure last night
That once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
I'm still driving away
And I'm sorry every day
I won't always love these selfish things
I won't always live...
Not stopping...

It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

Amazing still it seems
I'll be 23
I won't always love what I'll never have
I won't always live in my regrets

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine...

oh and since im posting stuff. how about the lit poem that i was tested on for midyears. the one that is probably gonna kill my lit grade. congratulations ongyingxin. i dont think the A that you got for constructing a poem can save your sorry ass for midyears. =/

Boy at the Window
Seeing the snowman standing all alone
In dusk and cold is more than he can bear.
The small boy weeps to hear the wind prepare
A night of gnashings and enormous moan.
His tearful sight can hardly reach to where
The pale-faced figure with bitumen eyes
Returns him such a God-forsaken stare
As outcast Adam gave to paradise.

The man of snow is, nonetheless, content,
Having no wish to go inside and die.
Still, he is moved to see the youngster cry.
Though frozen water is his element,
He melts enough to drop from one soft eye
A trickle of the purest rain, a tear
For the child at the bright pane surrounded by
Such warmth, such light, such love, and so much fear.

Richard Wilbur

2008-07-02T22:04:00.001+08:00

FUCK CHINESE ORAL. actually no. FUCK LA ONGYINGXIN WHY SCREW UP!

i think passage was alright. as in. relative to last year. it was like about the same. except for like. 3 words nia. -.- then i had to fuck up conversation so damn badly i never fucked up this bad before. i think its due to like lack of practice and all as compared to last year. AH FUCK LA. knn. like i had this point that like its difficult because like i wanted to say that its often neglected. as in. stagnant water. yeah i was tested on dengue. oh and did i mention that when she said "YI WEN" i was like "huh yi wen shi she me?" until she said wenzi. yeah. fuck la.

okay i dont wanna talk about it anymore.

2008-07-02T00:46:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOD! LATER I HAVE CHEENA ORAL. HOW SIAAA. how am i supposed to be cheena yo. i think i lost my distinction abilities man. idk how i got that also. fuckkkkkk.

league sucked. i bowled like kannasai. i think its a 15 avg. LOL. wtf man. ongyingxin stop dragging the world down with you.

anyway. decided not to go send lyanne off.

i came home instead. hmm. lester sent me back. along with vincent in the car. after he dropped me he was gonna send vince back. yeapp.

NOTHING MUCH. i shall try to be cheena. i upped my WC score to 14.9k plus. lol. I WANT IT TO REACH 15K! i shall keep playing. idc. LOL.

2008-07-01T17:55:00.002+08:00

HAPPY SWEET 16TH AUDREY-BURPER-LEEHUIMIN! (:
HK OPEN GRADED B MASTERS CHAMPION SEH.

lol i dont have any photos with you. which is a good thing. cause that means your camera didnt crack upon facing sudden ugliness that it never faced before. YES. like coming from me. -.-

ANYWAYYY. thanks for entertaining me. not with the burps. which by the way were not caused by me i swear. anyway.

YOU'RE TAKING O'S THIS YEAR! SO YOU MUST STUDY HARD AND DO WELL OKAY! tell everyone you got 11. but you would have gotten 6 (: so you can form a new club. 6 is the new 11 (: YAY.

MILO THIS YEAR!! DONT PANGSEH AH! lol.

takecare yo. <3

2008-06-30T20:17:00.008+08:00

HOLY CRAP! im so freaking screwed for lit. HEEHEE. die.

anywayy. whatever it is. im just DEAD man. lol.

tomorrow i gotta wake up early. basket. the paper should be in the afternoon man. so we can all SLEEEEEEEEP. rahh.

then i guess i'll come home to rest. then i have league at night. rahh.

yay rtc tournaments are finally starting. 9 pin tap. some mq thing. like top series in the week. 4 games. how easy man. 9 pin tap nia. POCKET POCKET POCKET. whoots. heck. im too lousy. maybe i wont win shit. lol. i'll go jio michelle to play with me (:

STUPID DENISE CHAN OWES ME LIKE A PRATA DATE. shes lucky i dont charge interest. lol.
AUDREY-BURPER-LEEHUIMIN'S BIRTHDAY'S TOMORROW! (: im gonna post one post for her later. shiz. dont have her picture. nevermind. i'll kope one from friendster/facebook.

did i mention i saw mrs choo's facebook and now shes my friend. LOL. and i added miss kek. yay. mg teachers rule yo. i miss mg so much. i miss the teachers. the certain mg spirit and environment. no one can take that away man. things like... both teachers and students going to class fashionably late. and ending fashionably late. and the solidness of the notes such that even if you dont study much. you can do reasonably well cause the notes are SOLID. and the morning assemblies having ms kon repeatedly asking us to greet them. LOL! to MG: imy. and ily. <3

IM SUPPOSED TO STUDY LIT!! ~~but i dont want to~~ lol.

shit. today i asked boyfriend something. damn funny.

boyfriend: "shit i got 33 for math"
me: "upon?"
boyfriend: "PERCENTAGE LA"
me: "oh. shit. wth. i sure die."
boyfriend: "yeah. shit la."
me: "boyfriend are you on the verge of being retained?"
boyfriend: "yeah."
me: "oh yay. then be retained. then you can join me in j1 and i dont need to be so stressed. and neither do you. cause you can be a retainee with me"
boyfriend: "OH WTH! haha"

eh you should keep to your promise man. remember the beginning of the year we said after this year go trinity to do psych if you kena retained. instead of leaving. WHY DONT YOU RETAIN AND I TRANSFER AS J1 ((: yay.

and thanks to ense and audrey for entertaining me yesterday. when i was super pissed and everything. yeah. THANKYOU (: <3

i asked if you were free. you could just reply directly. the additional info. like why you weren't free. i'd be better off not knowing. if only i could tell you that.

2008-06-30T00:46:00.002+08:00

heyy. to you. you know who you are. CHEER UP MAN. whatever that happened. dont let that affect you man. and its not true. i dont want you out of my life. im sure there are others who want you in their life too okay. and no the world is not a better place without you. you've been a great friend to everyone. and like after knowing you. like its been real fun. and like idk. just cheer up! im always here for you alright!

These streets
Turn me inside out
Everything shines
But leaves me empty still
And I'll, burn this lonely house down
If you run with me
If you run with me

I'll stay with you
The walls will fall before we do
Take my hand now
We'll run forever
I can feel the storm inside you
I'll stay with you

2008-06-29T21:49:00.002+08:00

after training today. i officially exclaim ONG YING XIN YOU SUCK YOU'RE NEVER GONNA SUCCEED BOWLING LIKE THIS.

omgwtf. no two shots the same. i cant hit the same line. what the hell is wrong with me. omg. maybe im just not cut out for the sport.

anyway. did i mention how confused i am? you mention to me how you're not close to them anymore and actions dont show. or maybe its just me. and idk if those blogposts are for me.

anyway. i just realised im tested on chapters 1-16 of pride and prejudice for midyrs. HOW SCREWED CAN I GET. shit luh. tomorrow. hardcore studying man. i need to go get my chapter analysis and all. shit. not to forget character analysis.

OH-AM-GEE. kill me. anyway. i have league on tuesday. and then i think i'll go drop by the airport to see lyanne off? yeah. hmm. idk. its abit weird if i go though. dont really know her. lol. OH! and tuesday's my lucky day. it should be. its my lucky star's birthday. AUDREY LEE. your green. and your scotching. and your sleeping behind my lane and i sure qualify. LOL.

suck ass la you. why must you be in boarding. HAHA.

LOL I JUST HIT ALL TIME HIGH ON WORD CHALLENGE. 14k. WHOOTS. first matthew was leading with 13k. then michelle with 10.5k then me with 10.3k. after that. i played and finally hit 13k. then i was just behind matthew. then michelle played and she beat me again. 14k. so i went to play again. i got 14k too but beat her. AHHAHA. yayy. so im top now.

and stupid bryan bought me on ffs. IF HE COULD HE SHOULD BUY HIMSELF. stupid bryan chen. you're holding up my moolah. -.-

2008-06-29T02:48:00.003+08:00

RAHH i dont know whats tested for lit. or at least i think i dont know. maybe its in the portal. idk. i'll go check later. ohh. omg. did i mention how tight my budget is. in fact. idk if its even considered having a budget. cause im bloody broke. LOL. and i still owe audrey and enseilia birthday presents. OH! and i need to get my psp, new phone, new phone plan. GOSHHH. ongyingxin what have you been doing.

today was exceptional. lol
spentt....
50 on lunch.
12 on cabfare.
9.50 in the arcade.
10 on movie tickets
10 buying popcorn.
1.70 on icekachang.

total= 93.20

ohhh. and im supposed to go watch sex in the city. YAY. i asked lester low and he's gonna sneak me in. HOW COOL YO. and omg. i got league on tuesday which means i need to train tomorrow. lol. havent bowled in god knows how long.

hiyah. spend more money again. BASKET.

i think i should cut down on bubble tea consumption. and shihlin chicken. see la. now i kena outbreak. PLUS two fucking ulcers in my mouth. oooh but then again those two items make me die faster. okay cool. eat more. (:

2008-06-28T23:08:00.004+08:00

OMG. i just came back from the outing celebration thing thing.

yeah. woke up super late. met enseilia and ian at ps. yeah. thats story cut short.

was supposed to wake up at like 9. but my mum didnt wake me up and so i ended up waking up at like. 1? yeah. wtf. anyway. was kinda pissed i woke up late cause i was supposed to meet adeline in town at about 11. but then anyway i realised she could only meet me at like 1+ 2. so i kinda chilled. lol.

ate at some jap restaurant. with damn screwed up service. and then yeah. went to buy tickets. HAHA. for GETSMART. wtf its damn funny. okay anyway. went to the arcade while waiting for the movie to start.. to play some stupid game. wasted like 7.50 on it. HAHA. anyway. bought popcorn and all. dont know who's smart idea la. like seriously idk who. lol. 1 sweet 1 salty. IN THE END. the salty we had to like 'force' people to eat. LOL. anyway. halfway through the movie. they mixed the popcorn and all. then damn funny. ense was damn scared to eat the salty one. so like i shoved it to her. then like after that stacked it. then dont know what happened the lower one dropped onto the floor. LOL. onto her slippers.

anyway. haha. after the movie ended. idk why. like some fetish over names or something. we were reading credits. HAHA. then like oh. audrey dumped popcorn on me so i dumped popcorn back on her. and outside the cinema we realised she had popcorn stuck on her back. lol. then like after that we went to the arcade to watch and all. and freaking hell then i realised i had 1 small popcorn in my hair. BASKET. lol

suddenly saw vincent chiewpang tiacpin and geraldyeo in the arcade. yeah. and then ian left with them. mmhmm. so audrey ense and i went to buy stuff. ense bought icecream from gelare and i bought icekachang. LOL. yeah. so traditional. anyway. headed to the arcade next to pcbunk after that. played bball and initiald. then yeah. mum came so i had to zhao. ohwells. it was a damn fun day (:

ohwells i basically just summarised everything. OH YEAH. before i forget.

highlight of the day: i bet you're gonna find this on audrey's blog too. HAHA. actually got two.

1st
audrey was quite annoyed for some reason i shall not state here. HAHA. then like i kept saying chill chill. after a while she said something like "im very calm" while we were going to buy stuff. then enseilia goh said the smartest thing. "did you just say you're very calm? as in. c-u-m or c-a-l-m" LOL. then audrey was like YEAH YEAH IM FULL OF SPERM. haha. or something like that. something to do with sperm. omg damn retarded. like enseilia and her wetdreams. HAHA. ohwells.

and 2nd
god knows why when we were like outside this shop with TVs. then enseilia went to the shop and suddenly stood infront of the TV. opened her eyes super big. and her arms. and said I LIKE THIS TV. audrey and i faster zhao then like people were looking at her according to her. HAHAHA. ENSEILIA GOH. I TOLD YOU YOU'RE PORTABLE ENTERTAINMENT. haha.

OHWELLS. im gonna go play my game. and my brother is pissing the shit out of me cause of his gaming. he's playing some retarded online game. and he's faking a freaking american accent. its like OMGWTF. and then he actproactpro go slam the mouse and give shit reason that he needs to move fast. like hello. heard of mouse sensitivity. omg. -.- then he shutup and continue slamming it. SO DAMN NOISY. zomg.

2008-06-26T20:37:00.004+08:00

you know what. i was just watching onetreehill. thinking about stuff. that episode i was watching. yeah. season 5 episode 10. it was brooke going back. finding rachel near death due to drug overuse. why? cause she had given up on herself. and she thought that brooke had left her alone. which brings me to this.

let me tell you all a story. there is a sportswoman. one who was so successful ever since she was what. 11? she could beat a few of the top bowlers who were in secondary school. slowly she progressed. making it to represent singapore. all her friends love her to bits. she's lucky enough to have everything anyone wants. especially. the x-factor. whatever that means. and yeah. she had this special friend. one who got close to her unexpectedly. and one who was always there for her. recently, they've been drifting. the talented bowler, gives up on her faith in anything. she loses the confidence that she once had. locking her blog in the past is a great proof of lack of confidence. now. everyone is locked out. so you can basically see a great change. her friend, can only watch and hope that the person she really loves and cares for can pull herself back together and find the confidence to confide in her once again.

to you know who you are. you know i really wanna help you. everyone does. i know you may say you can make it on your own. even so. your friends need you. and they need you to need them. _ is worrying about you EVERY SINGLE DAY. even sometimes when she tries to take you out of her mind. she cant. she tries telling herself you dont matter. but every single bowler who knows about the friendship between you two. would know. that is not gonna happen. she cant not care about you. in fact. its not only her. i think all of us wanna help you. but we need you to let us in. i feel really bad. for that incident on the 19th of june. i dont know if thats the reason why you're avoiding her as well. i hope not. previously when you two have this kinda thingg. i'll like drop you a message. and strangely you all are like better and all. or at least you start talking more. but now. i doubt it works anymore because i tried. and i feel really bad for not being able to help her. and whats worse is that i have a feeling its cause of that day that you two drifted.

i hope that you find it in you to pull yourself back. for everyone. and for yourself. your personal message was once "people always leave". taken from onetreehill. i dont know if you meant it. but now im taking this incident from the same show to plead with you. even if you give up on yourself. you think everyone has left you. if rachel can pull herself up and let brooke in once more. why cant you. no one is leaving. we're all here for you. know that.

i just hope YOU are reading this.

And when it rains,
Will you always find an escape?
Just running away,
From all of the ones who love you,
From everything.
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And you'll sleep 'til May
And you'll say that you don't want to see the sun anymore

2008-06-25T18:45:00.002+08:00

LIST OF THINGS ONGYINGXIN HAS SCREWED UP.

recently:
ECONS
CHEM

others:
HER LIFE.

need i say more?

2008-06-23T21:18:00.003+08:00

you know what. on the 1st of july. im gonna change my blog.

i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me. like seriously.

i think im a parasite. maybe what wee says is right.

so you know what. im gonna get a new one.

no one needs to know what i write. no one needs to know whats going on.

cause its ongyingxin. the stupid damn lousy bowler. who wins by fucking luck. no rev no shit. everyone hates her. everyone wants to stay far far away from her. no one wants the association.

i'd rather people show their true colours. dont bother wasting time hiding so that you dont make me feel so bad. do you ever realise you're making things worse. its like every girl's annoyance. a pimple. you pretend it isnt there. you just tolerate and act like nothing happens. the pimple doesnt know when to clear itself. it just keeps growing bigger. finally you get damn annoyed you pop it. wow. damage. worse than normal.

whatever. idk what to say.

2008-06-22T19:37:00.003+08:00

LOL I JUST SAW THIS EMAIL EMILY SENT ME. lol. i did it and the results are like the love i swear.

1. Which one of the following describes the perfect date?
a) Candlelight dinner (4 pts.)
b) Fun/Theme Park (2 pts.)
c) Painting in the park (5 pts)
d) Rock concert (1 pt.)
e) Going to the movies (3 pts.)

2. What is your favorite type of music?
a) Rock and Roll (2 pts.)
b) Alternative (1 pt.)
c) Soft Rock (4 pts.)
d) Country (5 pts.)
e) Pop (3 pts.)

3. What type of movies do you prefer?
a) Comedy (2 pts.)
b) Horror (1 pt.)
c) Musical (3 pts.)
d) Romance (4 pts.)
e) Documentary (5 pts.)

4. Which one of these occupations would you choose if you only could choose one of these?
a) Waiter (4 pts.)
b) Professional Sports Player (5 pts.)
c) Teacher (3 pts.)
d) Police (2 pts.)
e) Cashier (1 pt)

5 What do you do with your spare time?
a) Exercise (5 pts.)
b) Read (4 pts.)
c) Watch television (2 pts.)
d) Listen to music (1 pt.)
e) Sleep (3 pts.)

6. Which one of the following colors do you like best?
a) Yellow (1 pt.)
b) White (5 pts.)
c) Sky Blue (3 pts.)
d) Dark Blue (2 pts.)
e) Red (4 pts.)

7. What do you prefer to eat?
a) Snow (3 pts.)
b) Pizza (2 pts.)
c) Sushi (1 pt.)
d) Pasta (4 pts.)
e) Salad (5 pts.)

8. What is your favorite holiday ?
a) Halloween (1 pt.)
b) Christmas (3 pts.)
c) New Year (2 pts.)
d) Valentine's Day (4 pts.)
e) Thanksgiving (5 pts.)

9. If you could go to one of these places which one would it be?
a) Paris (4 pts)
b) Spain(5 pts)
c) Las Vegas(1 pt)
d) Hawaii(4 pts)
e) Hollywood (3 pts)

10. With which of the following would you prefer to spend time with?
a) Someone Smart (5 pts.)
b) Someone attractive (2 pts.)
c) Someone who likes to Party (1 pt.)
d) Someone who always has fun (3 pts.)
e) Someone very sentimental (4 pts.)

Now add up your points and find out the answer you have been waiting for! Put your character in the subject line and forward to your friends and back to the person that sent this to you.

TOTAL POINTS: 29

(10-16 points) You are Garfield:
You are very comfortable, easy going, and you definitely know how to have fun but sometimes you take it to an extreme. You always know what you are doing and you are always in control of your life. Others may not see things as you do, but that doesn't mean that you always have to do what is right. Try to remember, your happy spirit may hurt you or others.

(17-23 points) You are Snoopy:
You are fun; you are very cool and popular. You always know what's in and you ' re never out of style, y you are good at knowing how to satisfy everyone else. You have probably disappeared for a few days more than once but you always come home with the family values that you learned Being married and having children are important to you, but only after you have had your share of fun times

(24-28 points) You are Elmo:
You have lots of friends and you are also popular, always willing to give advice and help out a person in need. You are very optimistic and you always see the bright side of things. Some good advice: try not to be too much of a dreamer. Dreaming too big could cause many conflicts in your life.

(29-35 points) You are Sponge Bob Square Pants:
You are the classic person that everyone loves. You are the best friend that anyone could ever have and never wants to lose. You never cause harm to anyone and they would never not understand your feelings. Life is a journey, it' s funny and calm for the most part. Stay away from traitors and jealous people and you will be stress free.

(36-43 points) You are Charlie Brown:
You are tender, you fall in love quickly but you are also very serious about all relationships. You are a family person. You call your Mom every Sunday. You have many friends and may occasionally forget a few Birthdays. Don't let your passion confuse you with reality.

(44-50 points ) You are Dexter:
You are smart and definitely a thinker... Every situation is fronted with a plan. You have a brilliant mind. You demonstrate very strong family principles. You maintain a stable routine but never ignore a bad situation when it comes. Try to do less over thinking every once in a while to spice things up a bit with spontaneity!

I AM SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS. HOW COOL IS THAT ((:

spongebob's the love. my spongebob bowling ball's the love too. and all the spongebob stuff i have (: yay. but i think the description doesnt fit me. everyone hates me. ask some people man.

2008-06-22T19:22:00.001+08:00

OMGGGGGG):

june hols ended.

this meanns. IM GONNA MISS SO MANY FRIENDS MAN.

im gonna miss late night talking/bitching/rating with audreylee. with her burping like free. idk why.

and talking to bimbo ense online )):

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

tomorrow i have my last day of hols. no paper. STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!!

i need to chiong chem and econs by tomorrow man. please understand it.

okay i'll blog again later. this post is meant for audrey lee. READ IT AND TAG! haha.

2008-06-21T21:27:00.002+08:00

lol upon hearing something and sharing it. my friend and i came up with a group. still deciding whether to set it up on facebook. inspiration from the group "my uncle owns zouk. does yours?" lol.

groupname: im not invited. ARE YOU?!
groupdescription: im not invited to parties but i go anyway. i know how to solve the 5x5 rubik's cube. i have time bomb relationships. when i break up with my boyfriends, suddenly people are madly in love with them. now that you know me. do you want to be my friend?

LOL. only those who know the original one. have a chance of guessing the new one. hint hint. she and the other one can be bestfriends i swear.

2008-06-21T18:07:00.003+08:00

with okay. about my birthday. i was talking to audrey lee on the phone. you can ask her. my reaction was like wow. at the messages that i received. all the people i didnt expect to remember. wished me. and at 12mn. aww. i shall post messages now (: and like shoutouts to some who wished me and all. yeah. including nic's sms.

nicholette: "Hello ong yingxin! Dont read this message until 12 midnight okay *spaces* HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING I LOVE YOU VERY VERY MUCH! I hope you bowled well! Sorry i couldn't stay up to wish you like i would have loved too! My mum's rushing me off to bed now. So see you tomorrow yes! :D"
SHOUTOUT: HEY YOU! omg. I LOVE YOU LOADS TOO! (: and omg. thanks loads for stuff. like your blogpost and the present. its the sweetest present. i heard you took a really long time to make it. i really appreciate it. thank you (: and yes. i owe you many many YI GE XIAO LONG PAO! (: and grats on singles and all events. dont worry about masters. take it as exposure. you told me its your first masters right? YEAH! good you get the exposure. next time you'll be top at masters yes! (: loveyou! <3

rachelkoh: "HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY!! :) See you later!" 11:58pm
SHOUTOUT: haha. hey. thanks teammate(: fun bowling with you man. for u22. takecare. all the best for A's. (:

charlenetan: "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAU!<3>SHOUTOUT: hey chartan! thanks loads for everthing. nag and all. and MILO ((: yay. idc. you're rooming with us. HAHA. anywayyy. i'll see you soon. thanks for your present yeah! AND THE CAKE! LOVE YOU CHARTAN! <3

agnes: "Happy birthday taugay!!! Haha. See you tomorrow! Don't spread rumours abt me! :)" 12:02am
SHOUTOUT: HEY YO EXCLASSMATE FELLOW CAPTAIN. lol. friendlies yeah. and omg. not meee. michelle. i told her its not. how nice am i. though its arousing suspicion. IM SUPPORTING YOU CAN. i said no you're not with _. anyway. thanks yo. see you soon. all the best for terms. though your econs is only till DD and SS. GAHH i hate you =/ lol. <3

rachelong: "Hey yingxin(: Happy birthday!! :D" 12:04am
SHOUTOUT: hey exclassmate (: yo. sorry i couldnt go for class reunion lunch. heck we'll have another one soon (: yay. must meet up soon and all. see you in school. all the best for exams.

yuhui: "Hey my dear girl! Happy birthday! May all your wishes come true.. Stay healthy n happy! :D miss u ! Haha. xD" 12:04am
SHOUTOUT: hey pw groupmate (: dont worry about _ and whatever okay. ignore them (: takecare. i'll see you in school. STUDY HARD! (:

audrey: "HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU :D Wlao never call me ): " 12:04am
SHOUTOUT: AUDREYLEEHUIMIN! im really sorry =/ haha. i forgot to call you can. i was still reading my book. LOL! anyway. thanks loads. for everything. since sgopen. its been real ass fun. talking and all. cubes. arcade. studying. bowling. eating. BURPING. no thats just you. lol. and okay not really. just sharing info and opinions. OH OH OH. and ASAL! ((: i cant believe brittany's out. rahh. "all my exboyfriends.. all my stripper friends.. they all want the same thing" THIS SONG'S THE LOVE YO! haha. anyway. thanks loads for the present you shared with ian. soon we will get HER to solve it. LOL. (: loveyou! <3

cheryl(classchair): "No sweet msg. No special pictures. No touching wish washy poems. Just an old simple happy bday. ;-) take care! HAHA. study hard ok!" 12:07am
SHOUTOUT: hey. oh man. i think i sent you the wrong reply msg. i thought you were my junior cheryl goh. LOL. okay anyway. yeah. thanks loads. youve been a great classchair. see you in school. study hard!

jiaxin: "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAU! :) don't worry abt tmr yeah! I'm sure you wont screw up :) have a greaaaaat birthday! Much love, jia :)" 12:11am
SHOUTOUT: HEY YOU! omg. doubles partners for 2 years. 2005 cdiv. we won doubles right! (: and that year we beat sss. LOL.(: as in literally we. and your sis and huierh (: top 4 in mg. anyway. then yeah. last year nag. we beat some people. LOL! great being your partner. i was really surprised you remembered. thanks loads jiaxin! (: loves. <3

chris: "eh happy birthday" 12:19am
SHOUTOUT: CHRISSAYYYE! you gay thing. lol. proness bowler. thanks for the advice at u18. i bowled better the next day. LOL! and ahem my lunch. haha. AND YOU CAN TEACH ME HOW TO HIT PERFECT GAME. lol. (: thanks for being a great friend chris. takecare dude (:

adeline: "HEY BOYFRIEND, HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY! :D takecare! <3
SHOUTOUT: HEY BOYFRIEND! thanks for the cake that you all bought. thanks for the 1 year 8 days (as of 18th) but now its 11days. yup. 1 year 11 days of friendship yo. ups and downs. whatever we've been through. takecare. thanks for always being there. love you! <3

denise: "HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONG TAUGAY! (: Heard you bowled pretty well eh. Keep it uppp! Love you tau!" 1:03am
SHOUTOUT: hey DC. okay im writing this in my shoes on the 18th before the 19th. yeah. thanks loads for everything. hmmm. miss the fun times doing poems. lol. and yeah. everything. takecare! love you too! (: and sorry. oh yeah. thanks for the birthday hug! <3

enseilia: "HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU TAU(: <3<3<3
SHOUTOUT: HEY BIMBO! haha. rahh. thanks for everything. since sgopen? yeah. its been much fun yo. and for the advice that day and all. (: i'm always here for you yeah! takecare babe. (: loveyou!

nick: "Oh woops. 2 hours late. Happy birthday!" 2:20am
SHOUTOUT: HEY GAYBESTFRIEND (: lol. thanks for the wish. and good luck chasing whoever you're trying to chase. or maybe you're already together. *GASP* lol. nick likes girls. i didnt know that. HAHAHA. okay see you soon gayness. p.s. you should have sang that day on stage. the girls were like omgwtf. haha. anyway. takecare dude. <3

gerald: "happy birthday taugay!!" 4:20am
SHOUTOUT: HEY GAY NIADNI. (: yooooo. thanks for the 1year plus of retardedness yo. remember we used to hate each other. HAHA. okay nevermind. when rtc oiling machine comes you better come back. own the lanes together yo. and ask chris. we can all share prize ((: haha. see you soon dude. we should prank call people again too. LOL. MUSTAFA! haha. fuck her la. lol. takecare dudeeeee (: <3

iris: "omg happy sexy SEVENTEEN, taugay! =D youre so cool, i swear!" 8:39am
SHOUTOUT: IRIS LIMMM! haha. thanks for the few years of retardedness. suanning and blah blah. and thanks ah. the stupid thing you all thought was me. NOT ME I SWEAR. but i know someone who broke up with _ cause she didnt want to _. I WASNT EVEN WITH HIM. basket. lol. okay nevermind. anyway. i miss your contagious laughter and your retardedness. we HAVE to meet up soon okay. we should have a chalet yo! (: bye CLASSREP. lol. loves! <3

cheryl: "Happy birthday taugay! :) i didn't forget. :)" 9:22am
SHOUTOUT: HEY DOUBLES PARTNER! (: stress bowling with you =/ glad you're still going well and all. and i doubt you wanna ask me for math help anymore. i suck at it. now its your forte. amath. LOL. ohwells. see you soon. takecare. thanks for being there and all too (: loves! <3

rachelle: "Hey babe! Happy birthday! :)" 10:02am
SHOUTOUT: HEY CLASSMATE! haha. thanks for being there for me. i'll see you in class too. haha. its been real fun man. takecare! (:

katrina: "HEY YOU. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! have a good one. :)" 10:29am
SHOUTOUT: HEY YO 3i4i BESTFRIEND! haha. my god i miss sec3 and sec4 times man. the retarded stuff. but hey. ITS MG! mg is wild yet not wild to the NSK "im gonna get pregnant" we're wild healthy classy fun yo. LOL. nahh. discrimination off. we're just fun. in a special way (: haha. MISS YOU LOADS. you're like bitching partner. TAKECARE. katrina brooke lam bubu eavesdropper taylor (: HAHA. loveyou! <3

wanxuan: "Happy 17th b'day yingxin! all e bext 4 ure bowling future! Stay pretty n healthy! Love,xuann" 12:14pm
SHOUTOUT: hey pw groupmate. you still owe me my zuowen. haha. thanks loads for passing me my stuff. and thanks for always coming back to sg to meet us. BOYCOTT MALAYSIA YO! lol. haha. takecare.

huierh: "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAUGAY :)" 12:45pm
SHOUTOUT: TAY HWEEEE ERHHH! lol i still remember your maid. damn funny. HAHA. anyway. its been real fun. since p4 when you came. track and then bowling. and loads of other stuff. you're succeeding like free bowling. DONT QUIT )): anyway. i'll see you soon. FRIENDLIES RIGHT! fellow captain too. haha. except yours is more prestigious. like aggy's. RJ. AC. basket. mine's what. -.- nevermind. visiting camp was fun. we must meet up soon. CHALET! (: thanks for the birthday hug too (: loves! <3

bryan: "Hey tau. Happy 17th ! Rawr. 365 days till you can legally get drunk." 1:12 pm
SHOUTOUT: HI REVGOD! haha. you're back. and bald. better looking than the bushy hair. haha. anyway. i'll catch a movie with you soon kay. promise. and stop buying me on FFS. i told you. im overpriced yo. anyway. see you soon. you study god. better teach me things like chem man. =/ haha. see you around soon. we better meet up soon. (:

ian: "Haha happy bdae and goodluck for doubles, although ure alr halfway thru. xD" 5:12pm
SHOUTOUT: IANSEOW! stop buying me on FFS too. and why you so rich now. basket. haha. and eh stop the kangkong. so 3 years ago can. lol. anyway. i'll see you soon. thanks for the 5x5 that you and audrey bought. oh we MUST ask HER to solve it. since she can. i know your reaction. TALK COCK LA! hahahaha. ohwells. SEE YOU! (:

beatrix: "Hey yingxin! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! hope you're having a great day yeah? =)" 7:23pm
SHOUTOUT: HEY TRIX! omg. havent seen you in the longest time. how's working at B&J? i shall go one day to kope icecream. then get sorethroat. lol. i got a sore throat the last time i ate it. lol. anyway. see you around soon. i seldom see your brother even man. anyway. yeah. TAKECARE! (:

paul (classmate): "Happy bday" 10:01pm
SHOUTOUT: hey dude. thanks.

oh yeah. time doesnt really matter. im surprised you all wished me. people like jiaxin really surprised me. anyway. thank you all.

in the alley. chartan ade and all were trying to get me in. i kinda knew they were getting me a cake. which is why i didnt really wanna go in. like i was pissed. cause first thing i stepped into the alley stupid wee pulled my hair. oh yeah. wee called in the morning to wish me. his call went. " eh asshole. happy birthday. " lol. anyway. yeah. i was damn pissed in the alley i told him to fuck off. then after that he kept trying to get me somewhere i didnt wanna go. then finally i went and they sang a song and i was like OMG SHHHHHHH. smack in the middle of the alley can. lol. idk. im not used to people celebrating for me. i find it weird.

anyway. oh yeah. felicia wished me happy birthday. lol. THANKYOU (:

darsh wished me and her wish was really funny. lol. heck. THANK YOU DA-SI-NI! (:

clifton wished me. and no i dont want a present. lol. thanks anyway. for being a funny owner. LOL (:

COURTNEYKHENG! thank you loads for the card that you bought ((: i miss you too man. we must catch up soon yeah! and im always here for you! <3 (: takecare. loveyou! (:

CELINEMOK! lol thanks for the cake man. and for being my like. portable entertainment. LOL. thank you for everything. for always being there. and for studying with me and all. (: loveyou! <3

DARYLONG! lol. brooooooo. thanks for wishing me in the alley. I UNDERSTOOD WHAT YOU SAID. told you i can lip-read. LOL. anyway. thanks for always being my retarded swear alot brother. lol. and for the funny stuff man. (: <3

MICHELLEHWANG! thanks for rooming with me at milo and all. and for all the fun. being a real great junior. and for the hugs at gradedb. and for the hugs ALL THE TIME. huggable junior. and the fun at milo shall repeat this year. idc. must room together yeah! (: thanks loads for cheering me up after masters and all too. you and chartan. (: LOVE YOU MICHELLE! <3

oh yeah. gracefung zhiyun and gale wished me too. thanks for wishing me man (:

i think gregtan did too. thanks (:

AHHH! oh yeah. and lester called me to wish me. LOL. thanks dude.

thanks to everyone else who wished me. alot more i cant remember. SORRY! but yeah. if i wished you and never wrote your name tell me. i'll write a post for you. LOL.

thanks all. birthday this year was alot better than last year in some way. but it was alot worse in another way. OHWELLS.

2008-06-20T01:24:00.002+08:00

once again. im lazy. okay i shall just blog about happenings

hopes for medal. in u17

singles. GONE.
doubles. GONE. 185 avg and still gone.
quartet. GONE. 180 avg and gone.
after today. all events. I SCREWED IT! omg.

today jaclyn came up to me and told me goodluck. wow.

and cool. change of luck. 180 avg. 18 16 18. not too bad. but screw the 16. especially after u22

anyway. u22 i bowled a 16 22 and 12. if the 22 was placed in u17. i win all events. which was what im aiming for. fuck sia.

why didnt uncle mark ask me earlier. implant me with jaclyn and i think we got medal for doubles. implant me in that team and true enough. kope quartet. what he said was right. ZOMG MAN. that was what he predicted when i went down to watch the lastminute squad bowl. MY GOD IT CAME TRUE. now. i can only say im pissed. this tournament made me learn importance of sparing no matter how pissed you are. and that you shouldnt bloody give up on your frame just cause of your first shot. and sportsschoolers and their lines. "i will not miss my single pin spares"

and to you know who you are. i got nothing to say but sorry. my fault. told you im annoying.

2008-06-17T23:27:00.000+08:00

i shall blog about my bowling another time.

right now. i just have something to say about the nicest thing i saw from the new champion yo. nicholette goh won 3rd for singles ((: GRATS ((: you did really well. and GRATS TO DARSH TOO. WHEE DA-SI-NI! 2nd (: and edlyn. yeah. grats. champion.

im gonna type out nicholette's msg. sorry nic if you didnt want people to see it. i cant help it. its too nice a msg to not be shared.

Hello ong yingxin! Dont read this message until 12 midnight okay

*spaces* [and me being unable to control myself from not reading it.. i read it]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING I LOVE YOU VERY VERY MUCH! I hope you bowled well! Sorry i couldn't stay up to wish you like i would have loved too! My mum's rushing me off to bed now. So see you tomorrow yes! :D

THANK YOU DEAR. yes i love you too. and im really proud of you. you did really well. CONTINUE DOING WELL. grab all events too yeah! ((:

2008-06-15T23:21:00.002+08:00

IAN SEOW STOP BUYING ME!!!!!

i said already. im overpriced.

anyway. went down to occ to watch quartet. i bought bubble tea. smartly dropped my straw in mum's car before i left. ANYWAY. watched them play. then i bowled like 3 games. lol. 160 avg. fuck la. win no shit yo. anyway. daryl's parents dropped us at northpoint. haha. then we went to eat at bk. studied abit. realised how badly im gonna fail midyears. U for everything man. then went to the arcade. shopped. ate dinner. then arcaded. AND WENT THROUGH HORRIBLE SHIT. important note. AUDREY LEE DONT DO IT! ): you cannot. anyway. yeah.

oh i forgot to mention. my cube broke. literally. BROKE. like the cannot fix back type. i fixed it back. but i think its only temporary. DIE.

ohwells. tomorrow's nag. i dont feel like playing anymore. so many things are going on. definitely they're not positive. and the week's gonna suck. SO DAMN BADLY. i bet loads of people are gonna forget. why am i not surprised. and oh! i bet im gonna screwed up. again. WHY AM I NOT SURPRISED.

for the next 4 days. 3pm to probably 10pm AT THE ALLEY. fuck. no time to study. and i'll be fucking wasting my time there i swear.

meeting drey tomorrow. shes gonna go down to support me. OH I TAUGHT HER 4x4 today ((: YAY.

2008-06-14T15:50:00.003+08:00

EVERY SINGLE TIME I TRY TO PLAN SOMETHING. IT ENDS UP FAILING. WTF?!

so i wanted to book costasands on the 19th. along with some people. and then no confirmation even now. and i just checked. OH LOOK ITS FUCKING FULLY BOOKED. fuck everything.

maybe i planned my life thats why its fucking failing.

moral of the story. everything related to me sucks. cause somehow everytime im involved. nothing seems to work.

on the 18th. im gonna spend my time by myself. its a day meant to be spent alone. fuck shit.

where are my bestfriends

2008-06-13T23:25:00.002+08:00

went for interview for pw today. disastrous. dont wanna talk about it. then lugged my bag to cab and pick ong then went to occ. yup. ate lunch at the vandaterrace. then went to the alley. finally got a lane and bowled. i bowled like shit. not surprising. then lester and lynal came. bowled a game with them. then watched them play 1 more. then i realise i lost my 10 for 10 voucher thing. and lester gave me his. thanks dude. anyway. went with enseilia audrey daryl nick grace and anchal(?) i think thats what i saw on her shirt. anyway. yeah. ate pepperlunch. drank bubbletea. arcaded. and shared a cab back with ong. end of story.

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus]
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

fuck everything that happened today. fuck everything that i heard today. fuck the wanted yet unwanted presence of a person. fuck ongyingxin cause shes nothing compared to anyone for everything that is comparable.

2008-06-11T21:19:00.003+08:00

fuck luhh.

why is it everything is some how or rather linked to you.

every single attempt to get you out of my life fails man.

seems almost everything i say or do. or things that have happened. you're involved.

what is with this shit. ahhhhh. leave me alone. like OMG get out of my head. get out of my life.

stupid bird.

~~I may have failed but I have loved you from the start~~

2008-06-10T03:36:00.005+08:00

so it seems some DAMN CHIO _ bowler is going around saying im MADLY in love with _.
im censoring cause i dont want that person involved. close friends can ask me who that person is.

ROLLS ON FLOOR LAUGHING MY ASS OFF. ROFLMAO. LOSER.

my god. what a big joke.

and whats worse.

after your whole scandal : "yingxin hates me because she likes _" [same person as above]

MYGOODNESS. what a big joke.

you trying to drag me in and make a bigger scandal out of yours. SORRY. attempt failed. my reputation in the bowling circle once reached its peak already. its SO PASSE yo. you can try. you can try bitching about me again. but then you'll be revealling your scandal which is WAY worse.

wtf you're such a slut. ask someone to _________________. hohoho im not gonna write it out yet. cause im a way nicer version of you. 1. i dont FABRICATE stories. and 2. i dont spread the truth even if it is true. at least not on the WWW. unlike you. you FABRICATE and then SPREAD. wow.

how about SPREAD something else like your legs and get the fuck away from me and my friends. go find your _ guys. i dont really care. dont think anyone does.

and stealing someone's _ is like zomgwtf. like hello. go find your own. OH OOPS. im sorry. you cant. its not you dont want. you CANT. yes. no one. you may be pretty. prettier than me so i got nothing to say. but hey. what's your heart made of.

I DONT EVEN KNOW YOU. and you already spread some shit about me.

i can imagine the underhand means you used to pull _ away from her. just cause _ is the most popular and blah blah. my god. get a life.

i dont know what to say about you. actually i have alot to say. but you know what. if i have nothing nice to say then dont say anything at all. oh shit. in that sense. NO ONE WILL HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY ABOUT YOU. zomg.

2008-06-10T01:00:00.000+08:00

omg thanks audrey. for yeah. that thing just now. it helped (: yup.

and boyfriend just made me laugh like shit. nice picture yo.
im posting it cause last time she go post my horrid poem. basket.

LOL

2008-06-09T00:55:00.004+08:00

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the stars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,

What about now?

ongyingxin. stop dreaming. it wont happen. you're ugly. who the fuck will like ugly people. live with it.

2008-06-09T00:03:00.000+08:00

HOLY SHIT. ENSEILIA GOH DIDNT KNOW I WAS IN MG ):

HAHAHA ahemBIMBOahem (:

2008-06-08T22:32:00.002+08:00

OMGOMGOMG i just watched incredible tales. HOLY SHIT.

damn scary.

BUT NEXT WEEK'S VERSION IS SCARIER. i swear im gonna watch it. its always been my kinda interest. the bloody mary thing. like its interesting and all. and its something we all know about. REMINDER ONG YING XIN! NEXT SUNDAY. BLOODY MARY. CHANNEL 5 10 PM! and THERES ALSO UTT! SO YOU BETTER WATCH! (:

yes. anyway. i'll blog again later. (:

2008-06-07T17:23:00.003+08:00

okay people. im blogging for the 4/7 here. yeah. im lazy to change the date and all.

after the last day which i screwed up terribly. yeah. audrey came down after her class which ended really early. went to causeway with chris ian justin kunlong audrey and some other sportsschoolers from other academies. anyway. yeah. we were walking to the busstop. at this long pathway. saw the bus coming. we all sprinted to the busstop. LOL. quite funny. anyway. reached causeway. some decided to go j8 so audrey kunlong and i walked around and then kunlong disappeared and then audrey and i went to pastamania. saw enseilia vincent chiewpang weixiang and all. yeah. they went to eat before meeting gerald after his squad then they were gonna watch a movie. yeah.

anywayyyy. i dragged audrey to visit mg bowling camp with me. haha. went whitesands first. played initial d and bball and drummania. while audrey lee played ddr and drummania and bball too. yayyy. after spending close to 1 hour at the arcade. we walked to ehub to meet huierh iris agnes lizhen yvonne. oh before i forget. before the arcade. i called iris. damn funny convo. i cant type it here. i dont wanna be sued by one entire race man. haha. anyone wanna know ask me. anyway. they sat the stupid wheel thing. yeah. then i stoned around and oh got to see the small lane at ehub. so cute. haha. then we walked to aranda. oh i bluffed michelle i was bringing my cousin. and she believed. went to michelle's room and she saw audrey and she was like EE YOU BLUFF ME! hahaha.

left for dinner. went for dinner at aranda restaurant. zhimin sarah florence came for dinner. cherylngjiaying came super late. after dinner and yeah. we watched the skit and all. it was HILARIOUS. i swear. i sat with huierh and the two of us were like OMG HAHAHAH. and OMG _______ *censored* hahaha. yeah. after that we gave our comments and all. then left. yup. OH YEAH. while walking to the room where the skit thing was. or was that before dinner. cant remember. lina and shannen screamed in the corridor. audrey was like OMG MG. and im like hell yeah this is mg bowling camp for you man. HAHA.

huierh and parents could give me a lift back. she was giving audrey iris and agnes a lift too. yay. thanks aunty and uncle. anyway. while waiting for her parents huierh iris agnes audrey and i were like sitting at some lobby and like talking. it was fun. oh and we called chris and audrey did this damn funny voice. and he thought it was iris. HILARIOUS. ahhaha. he thought it was jiaxin at first. =/ anyway.

catching up with the other bowlers from the batch was really fun. and omg. huierh and i were talking about friendlies. we have 3 captains from our batch yo. mine is like no big deal so yeah. WHATEVER.

okay im gonna go back to stoning. p.s. audrey im fine. serious.

2008-06-07T17:13:00.002+08:00

holidays are ending. what have i done? everything and nothing. no its not meant to be ironic.

i did everything that went wrong
i did nothing that went right.

bowling, studies, friendship, time management.

every single fucking thing.

i havent done any freaking homework or revision. school starts in 2 weeks. oh im sorry 1 week. considering one freaking week will be wasting my time again at another competition that i wont win. like hello. how the freak am i supposed to do well. and what. mids are in 2 weeks. great. and that freaking one week at competition. there's one particular day. i'd rather fucking die than to go but i have to be there. screw this shit. that day is the worst day to be in the alley. the simplest reason is cause i shouldnt have ever stepped into the alley and made it my 2nd home. it cant be considered a home. at least not for me. with the addition that that day is already screwed up enough as it is. this sucks even more.

2008-06-07T14:50:00.005+08:00

hello my name is ongyingxin
im a bitch
im an idiot
im annoying
im hated by majority
im a loser
i suck at bowling
i have no friends
i have no life
i stick to people like crazy
im stupid
i hate my life
im not meant to bowl
i dont belong in the bowling world
i piss people off easily
i should close my blog
i have nothing to say

except

im sorry.
im not who you thought i was.

bye

2008-06-06T20:23:00.002+08:00

U18 OFFICIALLY ENDED TODAY (:

masters. i bowled like !QAZ@WSX#EDC$RFV%TGB^YHN&UJM*IK<(OL>)P:?
yes.

159. 172. 203. 192. 170. 185. 231. 178. 135. 202. 188. 170.

i know the 135 is like OMGWTF. yes. and on wooden lane somemore. rahh.

overall i got...... *drumroll* 18th. HAHAH. coolios. 120 bucks. i covered 120. lose 80. BETTER THAN NOTHING. though i could have gotten 150. heck. stupid 130. i'll be 11th if i bowled a 180 instead. BACKSIDE. anywayyyy....

CONGRATS CHIEWPANG AND CHRIS.

CHAMPION AND 2nd RUNNER UP SEHHHH. 5k and 1k. PRONESS.

anyway. im bored. my thumb is dead-ded. =/

the chilli in the meepok isnt killing calories. know why? cause i eat hell alot other than 3 meals. RAHH. should go eat more chilli meepok with chris. oh yeah. this morning met chris and justin and their mummies for breakfast. (:

supposed to go get my earpiece but drey wanted to go play mj. so she went to gerald yeo's house. yupppp. drey asked me to go but duhh. since gerald hates me so like duhh. i couldnt go. -.-

anywayyyyy. u18 has been real fun. bowling with pros. hanging with pros. FUN-Os. (:

2008-06-04T22:04:00.000+08:00

OMG. i cannot believe my luck today. i swear

223 173 204 164 198 187

total: 1148
w hdcp: 1196
scratch avg: 191.3
w hdcp avg: 199.3

gay strikes FTW. lol. so i upped my avg from 174 i think. to 187. yupp.

according to enseilia im 18th overall. 24 qualifiers.

i pray damn hard i can maintain tomorrow.

so far, the long oil squad has always been the problem. everyone who played played badly. so omg. =/ lets just hope i dont send out too much. =/ DIAGONAL. ACCURACY. COME ON! you need to qualify.

so today i woke up. ense called me after i just brushed my teeth. and she was like ARE YOU AWAKE?! and im like yeah. and she asked if i wanna meet weixiang shaun and kunlong too so i was like yeah sure! lol. anyway. so yeah. met them. i was late. i felt damn bad. cause she was alone there. SORRY!!!. anyway. played abit of arcade games. i still have loads of credit. i suck at initial d 4 i swear. i should just stick to 2 and 3. LOL. anyway. wx played the stupid hammer thing. omg la. insane shit. anyway.

kunlong came. scared the shit out of me after my bball game thing. then we went for lunch. and shaun came. yupp. i ate some damn sucky spaghetti. during lunch. chris alden chiewpang grace (?) and aiteng went over to eat too. and again chris was like NEVER JIOOOO! and im like err. dude. i told you lor. lol. anyway. yeah. left and yeah. ense followed me to get my shirts. then bubble tea and then to sss for my squad. yeapp.

after my squad went down to uncle richard's new shop at beauty world. omg lar. resurfaced everything. ((: yayyy. anyway. mum called and started yelling and screaming. and i asked her to come up to help me and she started complaining. so i had to bring my 5 balls down the damn escalator. anyway. suay suay when i was leaving the shop. looked at his opposite neighbour. and holy fuck. t*hr*y*'s mum's shop. WTF MAN. WHAT A DAMN SUAY LOCATION. LIKE OMG WORST FENGSHUI. i swear. i walked back and told uncle richard. "uncle richard. your neighbour. the opposite one. is a fucking bitch." his reply: "oh serious." my reply: " yeah. tell you another day why. her whole family should rot in hell. " im only so unforgiving cause i hate what they did to me in primary school. and not to forget insulting my mum. like fuck off and die. come on i was in freaking primary school.

anyway. yeah. and after i saw her damn fucked up face. seriously the suay luck i swear. my 1 ball bag had to fall off my trolley bag on the damn escalator. and like BAM BAM BAM down the damn thing. fuck. and like so sure the aunties and uncles have no life. no business ah? see what see. yeah i soooo wanna bomb the whole building -.- stupid. anyway..... yeah. got into the car. and my mum started yelling WHY YOU TAKE SO LONG. like fuck sia. i seriously started screaming like omg please. the damn ball that fell was the only ball that could possibly work tomorrow. the one that i used today when last game carry down was like FREEE. if it dies or cracked how? lucky no crack. i just hope nothing happened to the core. *praydamnhard*.

tomorrow after my squad i'll wait for drey to finish her classes and then we'll go to where she tried that time to drag me to. except this time. its volunteeringly. to her place. like PASIR RIS. lol cause i wanna go aranda to meet huierh and all. visiting mg bowling camp. YEAHH ((: then i'll go whitesands to play drummania bball and initial d with drey ((: yay. i wanna drag ense too.

the convo with audrey lee. motivation yo.

yingxin the most pretentious thing says:
im 18th now according to ense
yingxin the most pretentious thing says:
like overall 18th
♥ says:
whoaaaaaa good good (:
yingxin the most pretentious thing says:
lol i hope i dont drop tomorrow
yingxin the most pretentious thing says:
must maintain
yingxin the most pretentious thing says:
and its hard
♥ says:
yeah
♥ says:
ahhah
yingxin the most pretentious thing says:
cause all the squads that played long oil already
yingxin the most pretentious thing says:
DOWN LIKE SHIT LA
yingxin the most pretentious thing says:
omg )):
♥ says:
aiyaaaaah can you stop being so negative!
yingxin the most pretentious thing says:
okay. i SHALL maintain
yingxin the most pretentious thing says:
so that on friday i can go to your school again
yingxin the most pretentious thing says:
cause your school is damn nice and big and i wanna see it one last time
yingxin the most pretentious thing says:
YES (:
♥ says:
ahhaha YESYSE

2008-06-03T23:41:00.002+08:00

ongyingxin should quit bowling. period.

wtf is my problem.

short oil. and i have a problem. amazing right. oh look why. cause IM NOT USED TO MY BALL HOOKING AND BEING SO SENSITIVE TO THE LANE. oh my god.

141 159 180 193 152 176
slap me. seriously.

anyway. i wanna thank enseilia and audrey for meeting me for lunch. im sorry i was late.

how long does it take one to read and reply a message. surely its less than 0.1% of your study time. whatever. im reassured of my insignificance.

2008-05-31T02:52:00.003+08:00

im seriously surrounded by pro friends. and their achievements mann. like seriously. for those who dont know. qualifying is already DAMN HARD. in fact. its harder than masters itself. its only 4 games. 1 high game and a min of 160 of low game can already lorrr. look at youth. you need 206 avg to qualify. but the winner for masters is 210 avg. and only 7/12 qualifier. LOL. and graded b. last qualifier is 183 avg. i won with a 183 avg. -.- u16 girls was 190 to qualify but ense won with 191. 2nd was 185 i think. yeah. but hers is different. 19+ avg = pro. see. NOOB IN DA HOUSE. 183 avg only ): it'll make me 3rd for u16 IF i can play. ohwells. lousy means lousy.

denisechan- youth 2nd
enseilia- u16 champion
nick marcus and ong- graded b masters finallist
weixiang chris justin- youth masters finallist
kawai huifen anthea- youth masters finallist
michellehwang gracefung- graded b masters finallist
audrey- hongkong open graded b champ (: [see now the whole world knows and cares]

NOT TO FORGET. the friends that seriously stayed by me though im a loser.
BOYFRIEND! nick, audrey, celine, nic, daryl, gerald, denise, darsh

plus my new friend enseilia goh. (:
amazing you know. i swear. go look at my tagboard. the first tag from her with her link. saying something u16. there. see that date. thats the day i actually talked to her. cool eh. idk man. i guess we just click well. and the masters thing was just cool yo. anyway. YOUR BIRTHDAY IS COMING. chicken rice. plus a present. HAHA. oh yeah. we must ask denise to buy us something from europe. since she won youth (: $$! and thanks for the nice songs. takecare.

AUDREY!(:
omg you know what. when you read this. i think we both missed masters. cause its 3.02 AM and im still awake. HAHA. i think you'll be the one calling me. hahaha. omg. and ehhh. must play graded A with me for aia ): i got no team. basket. damn sad cannnnn. im gonnna DIEEEE. what the heck man. 3 years. ): OMGGGG. the last year. i'll be DAMN DAMN SAD. cause you can bowl already. and i still cant. RAHH. ): math math math. eh go learn 4x4 kay. (: you know you should just go rolloff tomorrow. you can use houseballs. still will get in lor. your name is there. AUDREY LEE. HONGKONG OPEN GRADED B CHAMP (: uncle adam sure take you. dont let QUOTE UNQUOTE "i have no balls" affect you. HAHAHA. its so damn wrong please. okay nevermind. TAKECARE. hopefully i'll see you tomorrow.

NICK!((:
lim gay gay. HAHA. eh nick. you know what. im gonna die. how ah. how ah. you better not prick it in about graded. i'll KILL YOUUUU. and omg. go for training PLEASE!!(: PRWEASE!! (: you supposed to invite tay and i to your new house. invite enseilia too. i think she'll be another nic. and get lost in your house or something. i bet you have a money tree planting somewhere in your house. i'll find it. OH WAIT. that money tree's you. sorry my bad. (: haha. im having a sore throat now. see la. B&Js. basket. ): QQ!):

okay i'll shoutout to others tomorrow (: for now. UGLY SLEEP TIME (:

2008-05-31T01:26:00.001+08:00

ONGYINGXIN NEEDS MONEY.

okay. first thing you're like HELLO YOU HAVE 800 DOLLARS. no i dont.

im not gonna touch that money.

previously my rtc few hundred winnings. the first title. champion of the quarter. i didnt touch that too. (:

so maybe i'll swap. im not gonna use graded b money at all.

and i need to get a new ipod a new phone a psp a guitar new clothes. OMG.

i need a money tree.

DENISE CHAN! i need you.

NICHOLAS LIM! i need you.

((:

i spilt bubble tea into my crumpler again. and this time its not a stain. its a pool. pure cubes. pure ipod. pure NOTEBOOK omg lar. i need a new one. FREAK.

2008-05-29T23:10:00.004+08:00

41st SINGAPORE INTERNATIONAL OPEN GRADED B WOMEN CHAMPION
ong ying xin. 1469 avg 183.6

honestly. i've been waiting for this day. finally an 'international' title. but hey. somehow i dont feel the joy. i wanted to like. kill my last frame so i wont win. but something was holding me back. actually winning. but now i actually ache at the thought of the consequences. 3 years. no graded. that means that the remaining 3 years of milo that i can go for. i cant play graded. that means what. open? this is a sign ongyingxin. its a sign for you to train hard as best you can. get into NY possibly. and be sponsored. and do the best you can. anyway. im really thankful for what happened today anyway.

thanks loads to everyone who supported/congratulated me. [plus a little note to them]
BOYFRIEND! thank you loads for everything!
NICK! thanks loads man. plus 6th year of friendship.
MICHELLE! thanks loads huggable junior.
GERALD! stupid indian. HAHA! if you never tell me 250 i panchek long ago =/
DARYL! eh bro. chillax. still got chance at milo. break the curse.
AUDREY! yoo. though you didnt come. GREEN and PEN! haha. thanks (:
NICHOLETTE! omg you came. ((: pull earrings ((: thanks.
ENSEILIA! heyyo new friend (: the promise worked. thanks loads (:
LESTER! hey youuuu. thanks dude. ahemyourgfahem. LOL
CELINE! haha hello. i cannot believe you fell for it. anyway. thanks! (:
KAWAI! hey. thanks for the grats. good luck for youth tomorrow.
DARSH! hey yo. thanks for the grats. _ is ugly =/ haha.
DENISE! hey DC! all the best for youth. i tell you its a sign for you to win (: and thanks.
KRISTEL! yo. thanks for the sms. haha.
CHARTAN! hey. thanks for the super late wish. you wished me in the alley anyway. LOL!
CHRIS! haha. nice bs-ing audrey. thanks for the grats.
ANTHONY! i do not owe you money. crazy. thanks anyway dude.
AITENG! thanks for the grats girl (:
CALISTA! thanks for the congratulations (:
GRACE! hey pro robot junior. great game today. win aia! thanks anyway(:
VALERIE! hey. you did well too (: thanks anyway(:
MARCUS! hey robot bowler. did well too la. thanks anyway.
MICHAELA! hey. haha. omg the chionging is just crazy. and thanks.
HUIFEN! hey all the best for tomorrow. thanks (:
ALWIN! pro leftie. fast speed high rev. niceee. thanks anyway (:
DARREN! hey thanks for the grats gorilla(: haha.
AUNTY GINA! hello aunty gina. dont laugh at people. haha. thanks loads (:
CHIEWPANG'S MUM! aunty. xie xie ni. (:
MICHELLE CHRIS AND BETH'S PARENTS! hello aunty and uncle. thank you both loads. (:
DARSHINI'S MUM! thank you so much aunty for the motivation after milo (: and the support.
AUNTY SHIRLEY! hello aunty. thanks. and for being my track coach 6 years ago too =/
COACH FRANCIS AND COACH THOMAS! idk you ydk me. so nevermind. thanks (:

last but not least. MY MUMMY AND UNCLE RICHARD. thanks for the continuous support from mummy and continuous guidance from uncle richard. 6 years my coach yo. (:

I LOVE YOU ALL !(:
<333333333333

lunch today was just great. BROTHER BOYFRIEND BESTFRIEND AND NEWFRIEND (:
spent time catching up with boyfriend ((:
oh and i got to know enseilia more.
shes kinda the first person i can like clique well with so fast.
i got to know her recently only. yeah. omg.
thanks enseilia goh. (: for talking to me.
and the promise (:
congratulations congratulations congratulations (:
you're a really nice friend. stop saying you're ugly. you're talking to me. me=ugly. yes.
and its really fun talking to you.
see you soon. takecare. <3

2008-05-26T23:47:00.007+08:00

YOOOO so i havent updated in ages. TIME TO UPDATE.

thursday was nothing much. reached home super late. nothing much..

hmm. friday. screwed up gp paper. NOT SURPRISING EITHER. about 800 words of crap.

saturday i cant remember what. oh yeah. met up for pw. then bowled at rtc. and decided to delay bowling till next day.

sunday
met celine and then to causeway to meet audrey then to faber. we trained down to harbourfront. OMG SOME LIAN WAS PLAYING CHINESE OLDIES AND THE STUPID BIG BIG GIRL SONG. gross. anyway. blessing in disguise. its for drey to improve her chinese for her o's. HAHA. anyway. went to toysrus and all. 3 of us bought this water bottle. the same. HAHA. and i bought my 4x4. yup. rushed back to the alley and all. thenn.... oh we watched deeeenise chan bowl. OBVIOUSLY DAMN WELL. omg. =/ played the 9.30 squad. SCREWED UP DAMN SHITTILY. 180 165 231 150. WTF 150. if i didnt chop my damn 1 2 4 I UP 3 MORE THAN I DID. ZOMG. nothing much. yup.

monday
something this morning totally spoilt my mood. anyway. not gonna blog about it. whoever should have known. know already. so thats an end to that matter. anwyay. after pw. THANK GOD MR KOH HAD RESERVICE CHECKUP ((: then we ended early. i bus-ed and trained down to woodlands to meet drey for lunch. then yeah. walked around and went to mini toons. bought nice spongebob merchandise. LOL. anyway. oh did i mention i can solve the 4x4. i lernt it in an hour ((: haha. okay anyway. yeah. then we bus-ed down to harbourfront. GUESS WHAT. *drumroll* the damn bus ride took more than an hour. goddd. anyway. yeah. then we cabbed down to faber. nothing much again. i just booked the erm. tuesday 5.30, wednesday 2.30, 4 and 5.30 mq. as in. waiting list. HAHA. today i actually managed to pull through 21st on waiting list. yup. played the 8pm squad. same lane as justin lim. the sss one. yup. and some uncle. hmm. 170 217 177 194. YAYY. before i bowled.....
drey: *scotching my ball* you're gonna qualify cause im scotching your ball
me: oh please i had to scotch yours for you -.- [and my ball didnt look any different]
drey: you're gonna qualify cause you're wearing green.
me: HAHA OKAY. wth.

seriously qualify. OMG MAN. thats it. thanks drey. thursday help me scotch ball. and im wearing green. HAHA!

anyway. funny people funny shit. loads of fun times at sgopen man. this kinda times. we alllll bond man. AIA SOON TOO YEAH!

audrey: yooo. fun hanging out. T&T. "he's not here""sekali he come now" *walks over*. LOL.
nick: GAY. i feel like telling tay what you said. DAMN TEMPTED CAN. HHAHAHA. keywords[balls dump house CANT WAIT] HAHAHAH.
daryl: TYCO shit 905. HAHAHAHAH ongs at masters. =/
michelle: PUBLIC TRANSPORT?! COFFEE SHOP?! omg man. im proud of you michelle.
gerald: LAUGH SOMEMORE! mean shit. haha. later they use that thing to hit you i tell you.
denise: GAYSHIT! i bowled damn badly... ): 79+ 80+ GO AWAYY!!!! haha.
celine: haha you thought audrey was from MG. HAHAHA.
kristel: never _ _ _ hahaha. hilarious.
huierh: taugay share cheecheongfun with me! and eat 1 piece. haha.
darshini: DA SI NIIIIIIII!
enseilia: pro la. 2nd qualifier. -.-

p.s. should i bowl sss u18? ((: idk. since im invited why not. but AIYAHHH. last sia... ):

2008-05-19T19:32:00.002+08:00

cool. so i was surfing on youtube. i found the video i watched quite a while back. CHINESE SONG. yeah. theme song for "The Golden Path". chnl 8 9oclock show. (: the lyrics are awesome.

路 - 迷路兵

我们都该回头看看来时路
就算起凤偶尔有雾模糊不了幸福

我们都该在心里数数感动的次数
谁陪你疯谁陪你笑拍拍肩一起追逐

多少爱错过了才看清楚
多少事无法弥补才认输
多少次以为找到了幸福
却发现一开始就是个错误

每一段路都是一段领悟
珍珠再夺目留不住心头热呼呼
真心的鼓舞能温暖一生的旅途

每一段路难免荆棘密布
把坚持牢牢握住不怕艰难险阻
学会去爱就不会迷路

anyway. went to rtc today. ZOMGXZ. i love the arcade now. they got timecrisis4 and initialD3. OMG PLEASE! next day im gonna camp there with 20 bucks. (: yay.

anywayy. bowled like shit. oh and daddy's gonna sponsor me for sg open. i think i have a 200 bucks budget. sucks. who wants to add on? hahaha. anyway. was supposed to meet D&G today. LOL DOLCE AND GABBANA! hahaha. nahh. far from it. daryl and gerald. i think tay and i can be A/X since ong calls me xin. LOL. okay lets ditch GAYED. (: HAHA. kidding. no fucking way.

okay so i got loads of things to settle. and yeah. i need to hand in nag form asap =/

tomorrow's gonna be a busy day. and wednesday. ZOMG. track meet. haha. watch me screw up 4x100. IM SORRY ):

2008-05-17T23:08:00.002+08:00

omg. so i just finished watching GG ep16 and 17. yes i know. im DAMN slow. rahh.

serena deserves our respect [p.s. shes still hot].
chuck and blair are the best type friends who watch your back instead of kicking you when you're down [oh cool. SHE should learn from them.]
georgina's a bitch. [oh cool. someone's reflecting what SHE is]
dan's too gullible. [with respect to that. some are reflecting his gullible character. believing HER.]

lol. the show's just awesome. it relates to shit that happens in life. especially when bitches like her are still not decomposing on the ground like the shit that she is.

okay pulling her out of the issue.

the show's awesome. cant wait for the last episode of the season. hmm. im really looking forward to 2nd season. hmm.

i woke up at like 3pm today. so much for going bowling. and SURPRISE SURPRISE! i didnt do any homework. congratulations ongyingxin. like you're SOOOO gonna do DAMN well for midyears. im SURE you're coping with math. and EVEN MORE SURE you'll breeze through chinese math econs chem gp and lit. just CARRY ON SLACKING. and so much for reading othelio in advance. im SO DAMN SURE you are already coping with lit well enough to do something extra. and then im SO DAMN F-ING SURE with your results you can leave to go somewhere.

WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP! DO SOMETHING ABOUT YOUR DAMN SHITTY STUDIES. STOP SLACKING. DONT LEAVE EVERYTHING TO JUNE. WHATS WRONG WITH YOU. CANT YOU SEE HOW BUSY YOU ARE GONNA BE. START NOW NOW NOW! omfg.

ONGOING COMMITMENTS
20th-31st May : Singapore Open
26th May : Maths tutorial [9-10] , PW lecture [1-2] , PW lesson [2-4]
27th May : Lit lesson [8-10] , Chem Lecture [10-12] , Chem tutorial [1-2]
29th May : PW lesson [10-12] , Due date for GPP draft 2 , Due date for EoM draft 1
30th-31st May : Lit Camp-Passion [2pm] [1pm]
3oth May : LTC Pre-Camp Briefing [1230-5]
2nd-4th June : LTC CAMP [0730am] [1230pm]
2nd June : Chinese lesson [8-10] , Chem tutorial [10-12.30]
16th-20th June : National Age Group
16th June : Econs lecture
18th June : suckiest day of the year.

not to mention the number of meetings i gotta have in between for PW. and the fact that i cant be MIA cause im group leader. =/ SAVE MEEEEEEE.