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Saturday, October 11, 2008

wheeeeeeeeee...

i havent blogged in.. forever. okay so school has been slack slack slack. i officially hate added a new teacher on my hate list. my pw group will know who. (: actually i think now everyone will know. its pretty obvious.

anyway. so i was right. you didnt read the post. or at least didnt take any action after reading it. i dont know how to prove myself wrong anymore. only you can. if you even made the effort to read my blog. obviously you dont.

just a while ago. i was having a chat with someone about friendships and all. made me think through thoroughly. in the past, you'd say you'd rather talk to me than to him. how im more important. well. maybe you never noticed how much he meant to you till you lost him. maybe you never noticed that he was of that much importance. neither did i because i took what you said. and thats how conflicts started. cause during that time. unimportant seemed more important because you payed the SLIGHTEST attention to him. well. now, i see the true extent of his importance. i see how our conversations will never fail to mention his name. whenever i get a message from you. probably 8/10 is regarding any issue with him. and most of the time, 2/10 are messages that will signify any possible letdown in agreement to meet/talk.

am i wrong? was i wrong all along?

Hope you remember me,
When youre homesick and need a change.
I miss your purple hair,
I miss the way you taste.

I know youll come back someday,
On a bed of nails awake.
Im praying that you dont burn out,
Or fade away.

All we are is all so far

Youre falling back to me,
The star that I cant see.
I know youre out there,
Somewhere out there.

someone would always question me. " is it worth it? "
i'd ALWAYS say " yeah "
in my heart i'll question " but am i worth it? "
the answer i'd give myself is " no "
but why do i just keep hanging on.
i'd walk past shops, look at the cute little graphics on bottles, soft toys
they remind me of our icons
but why do i still remember this anyway.

its okay. judging by promos, i'd never make it out of this school. i'll always pay for my mistake. this distance will either help me forget, or make me remember-for life.

Today is the day
The worst day of my life
You're so content it hurts me
I don't know why
The cost of misery
Is at an all time high
I keep it hidden
Close to the surface in sight

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me

rants you never saw @ 6:36 PM