Thursday, October 16, 2008
okay i swear. each time i enter blogger. this happens.
you see. when i enter. im signed in. signed in = easier to go to a blog without having to sign in again.
then. finally today. i actually managed to read posts. well. i havent exactly been able to see your blog posts. whatever. anyway. so yeah. idk what to say either. and the 'happy' post isnt from your blog. and i wasnt talking about you entirely either. in fact. the trigger of the post wasnt even anything you said. its what i saw. which kinda lead indirectly to you. clearly if you stand from my p.o.v. you'd see how although you told me before. 'i'd rather talk to you than to him' is clearly not the case right now. in fact. we talk more often with him as a starting point. idk how you'll see my p.o.v. and im not comparing myself with your friends freely. its so damn frustrating luh. lets just put it that way. cause you never ever have the time. even if you do. you no longer talk to me about stuff unless i start talking to you about it. (understandable) why? if you can tell me its 100% not cause of what happened then hats off to you. if not. this is what im talking about. the promise. "give me a missed call or drop a msg when that thing with him is bothering you". was that an empty promise or what. normally i'd ask you have you been talking to so and so. you tell me like oh when they talk to me then maybe i'll tell them some stuff. ever realised its whats going on between us now? and well. you saw my blog. you replied my post. and yet you pretended nothing happened and saturday is on. i wouldnt even have known you replied me till i MANAGED to read your blog. with this half-trust. how on earth?
maybe instead of wishing you never met him or something. you could choose me instead.
ah shit. you know what. this is going nowhere. till you read this. i'll just wait for a reply on your blog.
fuck chinese im gonna s.t.f.u. and sleep.
rants you never saw @ 1:42 AM