Friday, July 4, 2008
the wonderful effects of being stressed and thinking too much. you resort to the most desperate way of relaxation. to switch from thinking about something. to thinking as well. but of other stuff. so i went to play word challenge. yesterday i tried means and ways to surpass my 14.9k and hit 15k. well. i'll let the picture and your reaction. describe the score that i just hit.
yes i know. crazy. i couldnt believe it too. but hey. you know what. i think i'll just like live things day by day. afterall. its my fault that i ended up in this state. whatever it is. i'll just leave things to God. cause i cant change anything anyway. i just hope i can like let everything go. like just leave the past man. like i dont wanna think about it anymore. and i just want to have like peace of mind. i dont wanna start having this emotional rollercoaster all over again especially like when the stupid things come rolling in. like tay said. just do what i can. the rest. just f*ck it. and anyway. i just dont wanna think about anything. and i seriously pray that i can take everything off my mind. like just leave things to God. if it is meant to be that i get a change of school. then things are meant to be. if i end up being retained. maybe that is an opportunity for me to eliminate an option and just choose a whole new 2 years somewhere else.
thanks audrey for like. talking to me. even after talking to anthea. sorry you had to talk at like 2+. but i really appreciate it man. thanks for being there (: and thanks boyfriend for offering help and all online. i really appreviate it too (: and thanks to michelle hwang(: meeting tomorrow and all (:
i swear. 2 groups of people i love in this world to bits. bowlers and mgfamily. mg people never fail to be there for you. we're one whole big family. like although there's constant bitching. we all just end up fine after awhile. its like some drama season like treehill or something. friendships break and mend. and bowlers. like we all just never fail to like have at least one bowler in your to-call list when you reeeeally need someone to talk to. thats just us. even if it is like 5 in the morning. if we're not half-dead asleep. I LOVE MG! I LOVE BOWLERS! (:
oh yeah. happy birthday grace tan (: you're 14 already. only 2 more years. and you're 16. and you'll realise shucks i need 2 more years to be like FREE! anyway. happy birthday. if you even read this =/
OH YEAH! just like. as a place for me to write this. I WISH ALL THE BEST TO THOSE WHO ARE AT ABC! all the best. blaze the lanes man.
i just chanced upon jazreel's blog just now. my goodness. her link never changed since like. i was in sec 1. holy. 5 years. wowww. i think changed account once and changed my blog like 10 times already. lol.
SHOUTOUTS
audrey: hey you. thanks LOADS for like helping me and all. like listening to me rant. especially after like the stupid things roll. after singapore open. im a happier person. cause after i talked to someone more. and like idk. got to know her more. i realised how nice she was and how much of a great friend she was. now i wonder who that person is. lets see. hmmmm. hongkongopengradedbchampion? (: lol. thank you loads audreylee. for like everything. i love youuuu. oh yeah. see you didnt burp today. good whattt. its not me i swear.
boyfriend: hey boyfriend. omg man. thank you so much for everything. idk. like offering help and all. and like omg. the up and down and up and down. idk. we've come such a long way man. and yeah. hey buck up alright. prove your gpteachercurse wrong. you shall do well. (: i was kidding about asking you to retain. obviously i dont mind you retaining la. but like i want you to do well too man. cause you can. and you will! then you can prove your bananawoman wrong. i got no opinion. and i said YOUR banana woman. i call her by her proper name okay. cause so far she helped me loads. anyway. i too hope i can go join you over at sa. but we'll see yeah. idk man. i'll just like see what i can do. but! at least you can do well for pw. (: so you better. i love you boyfriend :D sunday man. dintaifung? ((: haha. like at 9am =/
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